Friday, December 31, 2004

My New Year's resolution

     Today is the last day of 2004. I am glad it is over. It has been another year in my life that I do not care to repeat. To be honest, I cannot think of a single year in my life that I would want to live over. People talk about if I could only go back and do that over again I would do it differently. I don't think they would. I think that they would do exactly the same thing again. I think the only thing we can do is change how we will choose to do things in the future.

     I do not know what my future brings. I do feel that there will be changes in my life. Those changes will impact more people than just me. I have reached the point where if I do not make changes I won't survive. I do not like myself very much right now. I do not like how I feel I have no control over anything in my life. I am 45 years old and I have 1 personal friend. 1 person I can reach out to, or rather I could reach out to. She is no longer in my daily life since she moved out of town. I read about how people describe their husband as their friend, I can't really say that. I cannot talk to him about things I am feeling. Frankly I cannot talk to him about most things. Don't get me wrong, he is a good man. But more and more I wonder if I can stay here. I have my friends here on-line. I have my journal. Those 2 things have probally kept me from totally self destructing this past year.

       So what is my New Year's resolution? I resolve to get a job. After that we will see what changes I will make with my life. Will it be enough? I don't know. I know that I need to have money of my own. Maybe it will alleviate some of the tension around here, maybe it will escalate it. I will see.

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

it is over

Christmas has come and gone. Bits of paper and boxes are still showing up in the strangest places. I found wrapping paper behind the toliet! Pieces of syrofoam defy my effort to vacuum them up. I am gonna have to pick them up by hand! What happened to my suction power? HUM Maybe I need to change the bag..... I ate too much and plan on eating more. I like leftovers. I can heat them up in my new microwave, make coffee with my new coffeepot and and toast my bread in my new toaster! I feel like I have a new kitchen! Now if I could have only gotten maid service............

I got so many cards this year. I am not used to getting but maybe 4 cards and 2 of those are from companies! To all my friends I thank you both for the snail mail ones and the cyber ones.

The Hummers were a success with my two kids(Brook and her Papaw). There is one problem, they operate on the same frequency so I will need to find someone that knows how to teweek it. They have to be a long ways apart from each other or one control will operate both cars!!! Everybody was happy with what they got. No returns this year! It was truely a miracle year!

   Well it is time to countdown for the next holiday! New Year's Day! WOW It is hard to believe that this year is coming to an end. I look forward to beginning a new year. Time for changes in my life. I am not sure what will be changed but I do know that changes will be made. I need to like myself more.

Well back to packing up the Christmas stuff. Everything but the tree.

Friday, December 24, 2004

My wish



      My wish for you my friends,is that this Christmas brings each and everyone of you peace, joy and happiness.

Merry Christmas


Wednesday, December 22, 2004


       I just wanted to say thank you for all your well wishes. My neck is doing much better now. That first day was a doozie! I made the mistake of taking my pain pills on an empty stomach and after a few hours I got sick! I did not make that mistake again! I do not normally take such strong meds but felt I needed to this time. 

 This has put me behind on all my stuff to do. So everyone that is getting a package from me will be late and now my cards may not make it to people before Christmas. I was so organized at the beginning of the season then the bottom fell out! O well it is SNAFU !

    Our dinner is going to be on Christmas Eve. I have a lot of cooking to do tomorrow. I will have help. Stevie wants me to teach him how I make things, like pie crust. This boy can cook and wants to know more. I will welcome the help. I will also welcome the chance to teach what my mama taught me and what I have learned elsewhere.

     It is storming here right now. We went from temperatures in the low teens (12 F) to 51 right now. It is raining with flooding, again... Christmas Day is supposed to have a high around 35F.

     The wrapping is done , Santa is ready. Food shopping only for me now. The turkey is thawing and the ham is waiting for the oven. Now back to the kitchen to clean some more so I can mess it up some more!!!


Monday, December 20, 2004

taking day off

I may not be writing or leaving coments much the next day or 2. i pinched a nerve in my neck and am having difficulties with that. My whole left shoulder is involved in it. Yes i will go to doctor if pain does not ease up soon. i am using onscreen keyboard to type. thank goodness for it.

Sunday, December 19, 2004

New family members

I would like to introduce the newest members of our family.
          They do not have names yet. Does anyone have any suggestions? the one withthe gray is a female, the white one is male.

Saturday, December 18, 2004

Are you ready?



Friday, December 17, 2004


     Tonight is the Christmas party at Brook's TaeKwonDo. I am making Teriyaki chicken wings to take to it. I slow cooked them in the crock pot all day and now I have them in the oven crispy them up some. My house smells so good now! A big change from this morning . I burned a pot of raisins. YUCK!!!!

      I made Brook mad at me. I am a mean Mamaw again. All I did was tell her to take the garbage out. For some reason she hates to do that. All she has to do is walk down the steps. The can is right there! GEEZEEE

       I made some Brown Sugar fudge last night1 I think between me and Pat we ate half the pan! I am going to be big as a barrel by the time I get thru the holidays! Oh well. I am half way there now.

     On a brighter note.... well maybe not............... Brook is out of school until the 5th of Jan. I hope I can survive that long! The weather had better stay good so she can go outside and play.

        Brook's Papaw gave her some money this morning so she could buy something from the Santa Shoppe at school. She bought me a Christmas Angel for my tree.   Isn't it adorable? She sure was nice to this mean ole Mamaw.

   Well I need to get busy. It is almosttime to go and I think she is asleep!

Thursday, December 16, 2004

A Christmas memory


       I was looking at my tree and remembering past   Christmases. One in particular I remember because it was the   last year I actually believed in Santa Claus.

    The excitement was building all week. We put our tree up 1   week before Christmas when I was a child. I was 9 years old   and I was ready for Santa.  My niece and nephew lived with us   in those days. All weel long long there had been a flurry of activity. Whispers and mysterous gifts appearing under the tree.My sister came in from out of town and I think there was someone else there.

On Christmas Eve we hung our stockings up on the door and placed our list in it for Santa, all I asked for was a doll. Lisa and I went to bed in the den on the sofa bed. this was a real treat for us. (Looking back I cannot for the life of me figure out what was so fun about sleeping on that lumpy bed!) The den had a door that looked like a window. It was glass. It was covered by a gold colored lace sheer curtain. we settled down and fell asleep, which was hard to do seeing how Santa was coming that night. During the night I woke up for some reason and sat up in bed. I saw my daddy coming in the front door carrying a bicycle. Not just any bicycle but a GIRL's Stingray! I was thrilled! I knew it was for me. I stayed real quiet, not waking up Lisa ao letting my Daddy know I was seeing him. I realized at that time that something was wrong because Santa was supposed to be bringing the toys.. I knew that my Daddy was Santa... I closed my eyes and went back to sleep.
     A short time later I woke up again and all was quiet. I could see the sparkle of the tree in the livingroom. I got up and just looked at the tree with all the gifts under it( which there was more of then when I went to bed!) and of course, the toys from Santa Claus. I sat on the floor with my legs over the floor heater and just looked at it all. I waited until the others got up and we went and woke up Mama and Daddy.

   Inever did tell about seeing my Daddy enter the door. I did not want to spoil it for Lisa and Doug.

Wednesday, December 15, 2004

More answers

This next group of questions come from Dannielle of EverybodyKnows

1. You just found $100 and can only spend it on something frivilous for yourself, what would it be?
A motel room with a hottub in room
2. Name the last thing you've done that you knew was wrong, but did it anyway...
It is a silly wrong... I left the gate open while putting Belle up. Paid for it. The other horses got out LOL
3. If you had to decorate your whole house, inside and out, in one color only, what color would it be?
If I had to do it all in one color I think I would do it is a very pale shade of this color.

That is all for now. Ask more if you wish.


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Tuesday, December 14, 2004


These questions are from Donna in Texas Sweeping the cob webs of my mind

1. if you could change one thing in your past what would it be and why.<ok maybe this would count as 2 questions HA!

 I would not do drugs if I had the chance to do it over.
2. IF you could do any profession in the world what would it be.

3. What special super power would you want if you could have one.
Super speed
bonus question: Butt floss <thong> or granny panties  ok I just had to be funny you dont really have to answer this one

granny panties

Monday, December 13, 2004


      Ok at risk of copycatting..... here goes. I got this from Danille's journal Everybody Knows

Here is a chance for some fun for you and me. Be serious or silly it does not matter.

    I would like for everyone to ask me 3 questions. Ask anything and I will answer.

    Next, play along and ask your readers to do the same with you.
 Okay bring them on!!!!!

Tell AOL

 Member Feedback This link will take you to a form that you can use to tell AOL what you want. Like maybe SPELL CHECK IN JOURNALS?????? LOL


Just a quick entry here then off to Walmart to pick up my layaways.

I am amazed. Between 6 am and 7 am my firewall blocked 199 attempts on my computer! Why do people do that? SAD!!!

Sunday, December 12, 2004



                           The rain has finally stopped and the
                          sun is shining and not a moment too
                          soon. Maybe some of the mud will dry
                          up before it starts again.
                             Thank you all of you for your
                          wonderful comments. They do make my 
                          days brighter.
                              Life is difficult for me this time of
                           the year. My mama had always been a
                           big part of the holidays. The family
                           would gather there and celebrate with
                           each other. Towards the end of her life
                           I did all the cooking. I never took
                           credit for it because I wanted, well... I
                           do not know what it is I wanted.
                               After Mama died I wanted to keep
                           up the tradition of the family getting
                           together. It is not to be. One excuse
                           after another about why they can't at
                           this time. I am not going to give up. I
                           will continue to invite them. I will
                           continue to make up a goody box to 
                           send to each of them.
                                All my decorations are finally up. 
                          Now comes my favorite part, COOKING
                          Today I am making fudge. I had to wait
                           for the rain to stop. Candy does not do
                           good when it is raining. I am also going
                           a cherry cheesecake. Then later on
                           today I may make some brown bread.
                                Time to get busy. I will write more


Thursday, December 9, 2004



     Not a whole lot    going on here       today.
     Brook stayed home from school today.She      has been coughing her little head off. She is hoping to return to school tomorrow but I doubt it. Tomorrow is Christmas lunch and I was going to be there.

This was laundry day and it is taking forever.   We go thru a lot of  clothes when it is  muddy.Sooner or later I will be done.

I am just tired. Probally because of the rain. It has rained about 8 inches in the past couple days. And there has been almost no sun in a week.Ok I will be perky tomorrow even if I have to fake it. Until then have a good night.

Tuesday, December 7, 2004


I thought I would explain the animals. My mama used to collect a few odd stuffed toys every Christmas. ( tHat and ornaments). In the previous entry, the Santa and snowman in the tree belonged to her. The gingerbread boy Candi bought me yesterday. The big teddy was hers. Pat bought me the snowman, Santa, reindeer, and penquin last year. The little bear was a gift to Brook. The gingerbread snowman was a gift several years ago. There are several more toys that are not out yet.

Almost there

      As you can see I have been working on the decorating. This is my tree, finally finished. The Angel was placed on top after Brook placed the last ball in place. The next 3 pictures are wreaths that are hanging in my walls. I made all 3 of them. This first one is an evergreen one.  The second one is very simple to make. Just take a grapevine wreath and use floral picks. Now this last one is a small grapevine wreath sparay painted blue with gold sparkles. The small good flowers are some I made out of nylon and wire. This next picture is what I see all the time. The hat is one I made for my Mama's door. And I cannot forget my little gingerbread snowman! The last 2 pictures are those of my village. Now keep in mind it is my first year with it. Like any town it has to grow! First stop, the train station. Down the street is the schoolhouse and next comes the church. One of the small houses is next.    Down the hill is the pride of the town, the carasol with the hand painted horses.             

    There are still a few things to do. I have my Christmas china and glasses out and I am using them. I like to use them thru out the Christmas season. If they break, they are only dishes, they can be replaced. Why have them if you cannot enjoy them?

     Went out yesterday and the rain kept coming down. We got about 3 inches of rain. I had to take Candi to see her probation officer and afterwards we went shopping and ate at Pizza Hut. Well with all the rain, the ground is very soft and that includes my driveway. I had to drive thru a lake at one point in my driveway. I drove up to the house and after I came to a stop the van started sliding sideways. I quickly put the van in reverse and tried to keep it from sliding in the ditch. Well I kept it out of one ditch and put it in another! Now none of the tires are in the driveway and I am sinking in the mud!  We get out and go in the house because I know that there is nothing I can do.

   This morning Pat got up after it put down another inch of rain and said that we need to get it out before it started raining again. Lucky for us the sun came out. The mud is everywhere! The tractor could not pull the van out. It is a bicycle style Farmal C. It could not get enough traction. Because of the danger of it flipping we decided not to push it with it. So we got out the old comealong and raqcuated it back into the driveway. Took about 1 and 1/2 hours to do it. All is fine now and I got the ole lecture about you know the driveway is too soft there after it has rained that hard...blah blah blah. i will hear it for the rest of my life now. Now I never say anything about all the times I have had to get the tractor and pull the truck out of the fields because he tried to drive across it when it was muddy.....


On Dec. 7, 1941, while negotiations were going on with Japanese representatives in Washington, Japanese carrier-based planes swept in without warning over Oahu and attacked (7:55 descr='[AM]' local time) the bulk of the U.S. Pacific fleet, moored in Pearl Harbor. Nineteen naval vessels, including eight battleships, were sunk or severely damaged; 188 U.S. aircraft were destroyed. Military casualties were 2,280 killed and 1,109 wounded; 68 civilians also died. On Dec. 8, the United States declared war on Japan.

Soon there will be no more survivors of the attack on Pearl Harbor. It is up to all of us to remember that day. We have to remember the horrors of war in hopes that someday the wars will be gone.

Sunday, December 5, 2004

Dear, deer

            Well. my dear did not get a deer. Oh well. I think he would have better luck sitting in our back field! He still has a few more weeks so he will get another chance. I know there are those that do not like what he is doing. He is not trophy hunting, he is meat hunting. The price of meat is getting outrageous! 

          Had to leave church after singing. Brook started coughing. We got home and I checked her peak flow, it was half what it should be. She is okay now. 2 puffs on her inhaler fixed her right up. I am afraid that it means she is coming down sick. I hope not.

        Went to Walmart and o boy did the dumb girl in layaway messed up. She voided my layaway!. I wanted to kill her. Supposedly itis all straightened out... We will see. I am seriously thiking of getting it out and making sure it is there!

    Well that is all for now. I am tired for no reason. I think I will go to bed now.

So far

This is the scene that is outside right now. Look cold to you? It does to me. Not to this guy though. As you can see he is leaving to go hunting this morning. He hopes to get a deer.

      On to another subject.... I got half my tree up last night. By half I mean I got the lights on. I have my toys out too. my village is set up. It is in the beginning stages. Still collecting pieces for it. This is my first year for it. By the end of the week I will have everything done except for the cooking and baking. That is an on going thing all the way up to Christmas Day.

Saturday, December 4, 2004

little bit of this and that

The parade last night was a blast! Unfortunately so were most of my pictures. The first few were blurry because it was cold and the lens fogged up. After that all the lights caused really strange effects that pretty much destroyed the pictures.I will work with the ones I have and hopefully have something to post. The parade started off at the playground and ended at the old high school. We had the Coca Cola truck and trailer there all decked out in lights. Several other trucks and trailers had large displays including one with Elvis on it singing carols. Candy was flying everywhere. Hundreds of people lined the streets. The parade stretched for over a mile. It took over an hour to reach the final spot.

So today I have been recovering. Got the tree up ,no decorations yet. I suppose I will spend the rest of the night fixing it. I am by myself so it will take time.

   Ok, update on my doctor appointment. My blood work came back and my thyriod was worse. So my medicine has been upped again. More bad news, my sugar was 139. Been getting a little higher each time. The good news is my cholesterol is a lttle lower. The bad kind came down 12 more points. My total is 237 now. I know that is still high but my good kind is very good and my trigesterids is good. I am not taking meds for that yet. As long as it continues to drop at the rate it is then I can avoid them.

Well time for me to get busy again. I will catch up with everyone later. Everyone have fun tonight and be safe.


This is horrible



Contact Your Representatives to Express Your Outrage

Shortly before the Thanksgiving holiday, the ASPCA Government Affairs and Public Policy Department learned of a provision included in the Consolidated Appropriations bill pending in Congress, which would permit the sale, and ultimate, slaughter of wild free-roaming horses and burros. This provision was quietly added as a “rider” to this comprehensive budget bill at the last moment.  It is sponsored by U.S. Senator Conrad Burns of Montana and is being referred to as the “Burns amendment.”   While it is unlikely that it will be deleted from the appropriations bill prior to passage, we must let the members of Congress know how opposed we are to this amendment.  Please click here to view a sample letter, which the ASPCA will send immediately on your behalf. 

As you may know, the ASPCA has been actively supporting the American Horse Slaughter Prevention Act (H.R. 857, S. 2352), which would prohibit the slaughter or sale of horses, whether wild or domestic, for human consumption (see ASPCA Advocacy Center at for information and sample letters to send to your federal representatives).  This legislation would stop the rounding up and transport of horses, many of which were once someone’s companion animal, to one of three horse slaughterhouses to meet an often brutal death.  These bills have widespread bi-partisan support in both the U.S. House of Representatives and the U.S. Senate.  The ASPCA will continue to work hard to get this legislation passed during the next session of Congress and to repeal the effect of the Burn’s amendment.

Thank you again for your continued support and invaluable assistance in our work to make the world a better place for animals. 

Lisa Weisberg, Esq.
Senior Vice President
Government Affairs and Public Policy

Friday, December 3, 2004

Brook's school


I had to take Brook to school this morning because I forgot I was in the van. It has a very slow defroster for the windows and a scrapper was no where to be found.

     Brook's school is in a poor district. Almost 75% of the children there are on the free/reduced lunch program. During the month of November they collected canned goods for the food bank here in town. but that was not the only thing they did. The last 2 weeks of November they had a jar on the front desk to collect money for ToysForTots. The kids donated their ice cream money on Fridays for it. Today they posted on the sign outside that the kids had raised $600. I am so proud of these kids. They could have bought an ice cream, but instead decided to help another child that is less fortunate then they are. I have no doubt that some of those very children that donated their money will be the recipient of gifts from some of the programs around here in our area.
They are the true angels of Christmas.

Thursday, December 2, 2004

so tired

    I am so tired today. I went to the doctor this morning and had blood work done, 5 test tubes of blood. I am tired of that! They were checking my thyroid and lipids. Both are out of whack. I am so tired of it. For some reason they are unable to regulate my thyriod. I have hypothyriodism. I have gained 7 pounds in 2 months. NOT GOOD! On top of that she checked my ears out and once again they are bulging. I knew they were because I was dizzy this morning. Running a temp now too. So now I am on antibiotics for that. Taking thyriod meds I cannot take any decongestant. So here we go again. I have got to perk up. I will never get everything done that I need to do.

Pat is off work today. He is out riding his horse. I want to be I keep getting dizzy so that is out. He took one look at me and said that I looked sick. LOL Sick or not I still have to fix supper. I have to eat. He does not cook (except for hotdogs) and nobody delivers here.

Brook got a treat today. Her papaw rode down and picked her up on Crystal. She got to ride her back to house while Pat walked. She came in with the biggest smile. She loves her Papaw.

Gonna take some more stuff for fever so I will feel better. Tomorrow is Christmas parade and Brook is in it so I have to feel better!. Don't worry I will take pictures!


Wednesday, December 1, 2004


         Well I am not thru yet. It seems the more I do the more there is to do. I now have 3 rooms tossed to the ceilings! I have almost finished rearranging the bedroom so I can put the saddles in there. (Actually the saddles are in there now)In the livingroom, I have 2 large plants that I have to find a place for. I have an antique drop leaf kitchen table that I have to make room for so I can set up my Christmas village. I have to decide which window to place the tree in front of so I can arrange the couch and loveseat. All this would be easier if the computer was not in the livingroom and the television was not in a built in corner cabinet. My only corner in the livingroom except for the one behind the door.  Well I am off to finish my bed so I have a place to sleep. I will work on the rooms tomorrow and get it finished!

Isn't she pretty?MzGoochie made her for me.

My discovery

See what I discovered today? 2 of my lastest batch of kittens. Want one? I do not see how the one can sleep like that!



First day

Okay, it is now the first day of December and I have to get busy! I promised Brook that we would have our tree up by this Sunday. O boy what a job that will be. I love putting up the tree but I hate what all I have to do to get ready for it. First order of business is to rearrange the living room. That means Pat's saddle has to leave the room! LOL that is right, his saddle is in the livingroom. Mine is in the bedroom. So I guess Pat will just have to join me in the bedroom.

First things first, a pot of tea  and a piece of toast.

Now I will get to work. Have to clean living first. For some reason there are toys and clothes in floor.....

Tuesday, November 30, 2004

My friend needs us

I have a friend that needs lots of prayer. She is the one that introduced me to J-Land.

She is a mom with 3 children. She loves her children very much. There is a lot on her plate more than this journal shows. Please show her how wonderful people really are here in J-Land and give her some support.

Here is the link to her entry. My Bipolar Son Read her plea for yourself.

See what I learned to do!

I learned how to put backgrounds in my journal!

You Are a Life Blogger!
Your blog is the story of your life - a living diary. If it happens, you blog it. And make it as entertaining as possible. What kind of blogger are you?

I got this neat quiz from Everybody Knows

Sunday, November 28, 2004

To be happy

To be happy, drop the words “if only” and substitute
instead the words “next time”

- Stanley Blanton, M.D.

I thought these were wise words. I am always hearing if only so and so had done this or if only I had done that.

My sister in law is a good example. She blames everyone for all her troubles. "if only" you would give me that or "if only" you had done that for me, I would not be like this. It is all your fault. 53 years old and still blames here mama for the choices that she makes. No one if forcing her to put the drugs in her mouth. No one if forcing her to drink and whore around. Her mother has given her more than she should have. She has given her numberous cars, money, the food out of her mouth. She has bailed her out of jail I don't know how many times. She puts her life in jeporady by giving to this female. Yes my MIL is an enabler. But my SIL is the one that made her choices on how she was going to live. How she can say that no one has ever helped her .... We paid her bills when she was in an accident not of her making at the tune of $2000. We thought she was making a go of it for the first time. Really putting forth an effort. NOT. Turns out she was hocking stolen goods for someone. But of course, according to her we have never helped her. Or anyone else for that matter. Me I wash my hands of her.


Today my hinny is dragging. We went out last night to play a little pool in spite of having the headache from Hades. It finally eased up where I could enjoy myself. Just as we were getting ready to leave at about 9, Pat got a phone call. An ambuance was called to pick up his mother. She could not breath. She had heart and lung problems. Well the way we got it was she was dying right now. We get to the house as they were loading her up. I am listening to all this she has pneumonia, she has been sick for 2 weeks, it has gotten worse today, she can't breath. Well we get to the hospital and go into her room in ER and she is hooked up to monitors and I am looking at her and the niece is going on that she has to be admitted( not the doctor, he is not saying that. The self appointed doctor. She is a CNA and thinks she knows it all). I am seeing her vitals and I know she is going home. I knew she did not have pneumonia. So after a couple of hours after they checked blood and ekg and xrays and gave meds she was sent home. So it was 4 am before we got to bed and I am pooped!

I found out later what all was going on. Her wayward, drug addict, w**** daughter is lost again and she had a panic attack. She also possibly had a virus. She has mild  bronchitis, comman for a smoker with advanced lung disease. But I think it was more panic than anything. Frankly I think they are trying to kill the woman. Too much going on there to talk about. Nothing good. We tried to get her to come home with us last night(this morning) but she would not do it. Just wanted to go back in the middle of everything.

Can't help those who will not help themselves

Saturday, November 27, 2004

Time again

It is time again for  Patrick's Saturday Six . Once again some good questions!

1. How long do your Thanksgiving leftovers usually last, and at what's the first non-Thanksgiving item you begin to crave when you tire of turkey?

For me, the first non-Thanksgiving item I crave is steak.

2. Of the following, which would you most prefer to be located:
a) Interstate highway traffic jam
b) Slow-moving checkout line
c) Dentist's chair

Been in all three but I think the checkout line wins it.

3. What is at the top of your personal Christmas gift wish list this year?

I don't have a wish list. Gave up on making one years ago because I never got anything on it anyways.

4. What improvement would you most like to see added to AOL's Journal software?


5. What seasonal movies do you most look forward to this time of year?

Rudolph The Rednosed Reundeer

Tara:  What is your favorite classic 80's video game?

I guess it would have to be Ms Pacman. I prefered pinball games.

Friday, November 26, 2004


Had fun with Belle this afternoon. I cleaned out her stall real good for her. It was a nasty, stinky job but somebody had to do it. LOL It is done everyday. That horse can poop enough to completely cover a garden a foot deep in 3 months or less! The fun part was trexing thru the mud. We have gotten so much rain in the last couple of days that it is soupy in front of the stalls. I manage to get the stall clean without getting mud above my ankles. I thought I did pretty good!

It was getting to dark and I got Belle to put her up. We got up to the door and all at once she wheeled around and pulled me down in the mud! Now mind you , this mud is not just your ordinary mud. It is full of hay, mud, poop and urine! It stinks bad! Th e ground is so wet it is having a hard time running off so it sits there and smells! Normally it runs off and the smell is not bad. Not today. Today I get the famous mud pack. Packed in my boots, packed in my pants, packed in my hair...... You get the picture?


Black Friday

It is Black friday and what am I doing? Nothing! I refuse to go shopping on this day! I used to work this day and I really hate it! There is no bargain in the world big enough to make me get out today. What is the fun of it? I do not see it. Sure I love a bargain as much as the next person. I have my doubts about whether or not it is really humans doing the shopping today.They are maniacs! I went to the store last year because I had to pick up a prescription for Brook. I had someone push me out of their way because there was something ahead of me that they wanted. I was pushed into a display that fell over.  In my retail experience, I have seen women slapping each other over a shirt! I have had to call security because of fights. Once I had to call an ambulance. These are the same people that would not dream of fighting the rest of the year. I was working in an upscale children's clothing store one year and one of the "pillars" of the community came into the shop.  Next thing I know she and another "lady" were going at each other like 2 alley cats! And get this neither of them bought the jacket they were fighting over. Why? Because in the fight they ripped a sleeve half off.    

So me, I am staying home. What did you do? And what did you see?     

Wednesday, November 24, 2004

It has been a long day.

It has been a long day. For some reason I cannot get in a holiday mood. I feel like I am only doing this cooking for me. I don't think my family cares one way or another if I cook a holiday meal. Sometimes it feels like they do not care one way or another if I am even here.

This is not good

This is not a good day. It is raining. It is not a little rain. I am surrounded by water. It has been raining for 3 days but now it is really coming down hard.The wind is blowing so hard the rain is coming down sideways. There are flash flood watches out and flood warnings. There are tornado watches out. Now this is scary. It is totally silent right now.

Everybody that can cook knows that rain messes up your cooking. At least it does your baking. And everybody with arthritis knows that rain messes up your body.

It is going to be a looooong day.

Monday, November 22, 2004

Some questions and comments were made about my labor day hat I felt I needed to answer.

The midwife was a certified nurse-midwife. She had over 200 births to her credit at that time. Her mother had been a midwife before her. She was in her a black lady in her 50's. A tall woman over 5'7" and a bit overweight. I guess you would call her big boned. She had strong hands. She had a wide face with a beard on her chin. That's right, I said a beard. Not just a few errant hairs but a full fledged goatee! I was taken back at first when I saw it but was soon at ease with her and it did not bother me.


My daughter survived her birth. She was 8 pounds and 18 inches of wiggly baby! Later that day as I was doing her first diaper change, I checked her over head to toes. All of her toes and fingers were there in the right places. She had a piece of skin at the base of her throat. I asked what it was. I was told that it was called a skin tag and that sometimes babies have them. I accepted that. It did not seem to hurt her and it was just a piece of skin.

Ed was found just south of Chicago. A CB radio message relay went out until he was found. Truckers relayed the message until finally the right one heard it. Ed was back home late Wednesday night holding his new daughter. She was wearing a dress that the preacher's wife bought her. It was the only girl thing I had. Everyone kept saying I was having a boy but I knew I was having a girl.

Some people have said how strong I was. I did not feel strong. I felt alone and scared. I felt that way the entire pregnancy. I did a lot of things while I was pregnant that I had never done. Butchered steers, plucked chickens, gathered eggs, chopped wood, and that was just in the week before I delivered! Survival was the main thing on my mind at all times.

Sunday, November 21, 2004

Saturday Six


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Here it is folks, a day late and a dollar short, Patrick’s Saturday Six!

Now, on to this week's questions. To play you can either answer the questions in a comment here, or put the answers in an entry on your journal...but either way, leave a link to your journal so that everyone else can visit! (And if you're playing for the first time, please be sure to say so in the comment!) Enjoy!

1. Other than news, sports, editorials and weather, which specific features or columns of the newspaper do you always read?
Obits, I know it sounds morbid, but I know a lot of older people
2. When do you normally do your Christmas shopping? Have you started this year's, yet? Do you intend to spend more, less or the same this year versus last year?
I start my shopping in September and usually end the 23rd of December.
3. You're having a true "TV Dinner," made by a classic character: who would you rather have in the kitchen:
A) Aunt Bee from "The Andy Griffith Show"
B) Alice from "The Brady Bunch"
C) June from "Leave it to Beaver"
D) Edith from "All in the Family"
E) Claire from "The Cosby Show"
Aunt Bee
4. What topic are you most sick of hearing about in J-Land?
Fake journals
5. What company is annoying you most with junk mail?
Republican party, I am still getting stuff from them
6. READER'S CHOICE QUESTION #32 from Chantal: What cheesy sitcom (from any era) most describes how you grew up? Your family, location, dynamics, details...

None of them