Wednesday, December 19, 2012

Buddy is gone

My Buddy has crossed the Rainbow Bridge today. I started this blog with his birth.

Sunday, December 9, 2012

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I can sniff the new Bon Jon Bovi cologne all day long!

Monday, September 17, 2012

Long time no see

It has been a while since I have posted here. Today I felt the urge to do so.

The seasons are changing again. Everything is still green. There are no subtle color changes. It is just something I feel. Today it is raining and it sounds different.

A lot of things are different right now. Slightly less than 2 weeks ago, I received temporary custody of my granddaughter. It was a drastic move on my part, knowing that if I lose the final court hearing, I will lose her for a few years. Over the past few years I have realized just how much my daughter resents me for the past. So much so that she has been very emotionally abusive towards Brook. She resents the closeness that we share. It feels as if she wants to destroy me by using her own daughter, even if it destroys her daughter in the process.

Life with a teenager. Wow, gonna be fun. 15th birthday was on the 8th. Time to go get learner's permit. Oh boy. Actually I think she will do good. First I have to gather all those things needed to prove she is who she is. Used to, all I needed was her birth certificate and social security card. Now I have to prove who I am and who she is, just short of providing DNA! (Green card issues requires DNA now)

About 3 weeks ago she had a skin cancer removed from her back. It was on her spine. Not melanoma thank goodness. 12 stitches outside with 3 on the inside. All layers of skin had to be removed. I could see the muscle in her back while she was open.

Friday she had her wisdom teeth cut out. OUCH. Poor thing. She looks like a chipmunk. I think we may have been able to keep bruising to a minimum. Ice packs for 2 days. Now we are using heat so she can loosen her jaw back up. Food has been an adventure. Lots of mashed potatoes, and today is pancake morning. She did not go to school today, as she is still woozy from pain pills and lack of food.

I am proud of her. She is taking honor classes in school. Science and American Government is what she is taking this semester. WOW. They cover a whole year of classes in one semester. She has math next semester. It is honors also. It is Algebra and Geometry. She will have a full year of Algebra and half year of Geometry in one class.

I just discovered I hate what happens when you reach the end of the blank space on blogger. You just type away and you stay st the bottom of the page. I had to hit enter a lot of times to give me some blank space. I like to see what I am filling up. I know, strange. It is like using a clean sheet of paper in the typewriter.

Thursday starts the new season for APA. Playing pool will be different this session. Brook has TaeKwonDo at the same time that it starts. Her class is not over until 8 and pool starts at 7. If we have a full team then there may be times when we both will not have to be there. I will have to be there most times as I have AVON customers there!

Okay, I am out of here again. Bye friends

Thursday, June 28, 2012

She has grown

Brook has grown up a lot! Here she is in her cheerleader outfit. Eighth grade was full of events. There were lots of times when arms would just fly up in the air with a fist pump or whatever. Sometimes those events happened in her sleep! LOL

This was taken at the black belt testing. This is a group of new black belts now and a new second degree black belt, my Brook. That is Master Lee on the left.

This was taken during the test. Look at that tired face. This is after about 2 hours of testing. She had just a long enough break to grab a bottle of water before she was back to her testing exercises.

Notice she is standing doing squats while everyone else is doing planks? During pre-test testing she hurt her hand and wrist during a blocking exercise and has a plaster splint on. It is full contact for her so yes, she can and does get hurt. So how long can you plank or hold a squat? This time it was only 5 minutes. look at that smile. This was taken at the 4 minute mark.  See the staff people? They walk around and push on you. Several times her shoulders were pushed and she went to an even lower squat. The plankers had to maintain straight arms and backs, ouch! 
Ok, so now Brook has her second degree black belt in Taekwondo. She is working on her third degree now. She is also assisting with teaching 2 classes a week. She is paying for her own classes now. She is 14! I know adults that do not have the dedication to stay with it like she has.

I am proud of her. She is a freshman in high school now. She will be in 2 honors classes. She plans on college. At present time her goal is neonatal nurse.. I am just glad she is thinking of the future even though her goals may change, she still has goals!

Sunday, June 17, 2012

Updates starting now

I have not been writing here much lately and I do need to get back to it. I need my outlet again. So much going on and very few I can talk to about it. So I will talk to me here and that means I will be talking to you here.

Retirement was supposed to be our time to enjoy things. We did get to go on our cross country trip by motorcycle. I am ready to do it again. It is a good thing we did because Pat's health took a turn.

After several trips to the ER and several time of being admitted to hospital because of breathing issues, Pat finally got an official diagnosis. He has COPD (emphysema) GERD , Oxygen de-saturation while asleep, CHF, hypertension and nodules on his lungs.

Friday we finally saw a pulmonologist and he looked Pat in the eye and told him,"You are not dying." You have to do some life style changes and you will live a long time. 5 days prior to that Pat had taken a Nuclear Stress test for his heart. He informed him that his heart was doing great except for VERY mild CHF. This was a relief off of my mind. It also means that I have been doing something right by eliminating friend foods, introducing skim milk into his diet and veggies that are not fried, etc. His entire family has heart disease with the exception of the 2 that have(had) Alzheimer's. I have him playing games that he has to use his mind to help with that.

The GERD is going to be a bit more difficult to deal with. This means another diet change and a big change in his eating habits. He is taking medicine that, of course, he will have to take forever. He was already started on it but we were not given instructions on the best way to take it. The way he sleeps will now include having the head of his bed elevated.

The CHF means no salt in his diet, medicine and feet elevated ( will sleep like a V at times!) It also means no fluid overload. (YIKES) On hot days this can create a problem coming up with a balance. Actually it already has. He ended up in hospital with dangerously low blood pressure due to dehydration. Three of his medicines can cause him to lose excessive water.

Three medicines that he takes for high blood pressure. Ugh.

The COPD has him on 5 different medicines. He has no lung reserve. When he runs out of air he cannot take a deep breath and recover.

The oxygen desat means he wears oxygen while asleep. I will be requesting a sleep study in the future to check for sleep apnea, which I am sure he has.

The lung nodules are a wait and see thing. In 6 months they will do another CT Scan and check for growth and if they have calicified (which would be good) If they is growth then a biospy will be in order to check for lung cancer.

So that is the way things stand right now.

Oh yes, Pat and I got married on Feb 1st this year. After 19 years it was about time.

That is enough for now. Tomorrow or the next day I will update more. Probably next day as Pat is going to have a colonscopy tomorrow.

Friday, June 15, 2012

5 Question from Barbara

1.  What was your favorite magazine as a teen and why?
I guess I was not the typical teenager. My favorite magazine was Reader's Digest. I really was not interested in singers and movie stars, makeup or clothes. I loved reading the jokes and stories. The last section always had a long short story that always was interesting. I loved the word game, where you had to choose what a word meant. I guess even then I thought like a geek.
2.  If money was no object and you could do anything you had dreamed of with them, would you choose motorcycles or horses and why? 
Since I have both this one is hard. I love my horse. She gives me great pleasure but lots of grief too. I think I would have to choose my motorcycle. I would like to ride around the country again only this time get all 48 mainland states and Alaska. I would like to see more and stay longer in places. I would like to visit my Facebook friends and my blogger friends. I would like to take a year or more to do this in.
3.  What's the best thing God has ever done for you, personally?
 Allowed me to walk again after breaking my back
4.  What do you enjoy the most about where you live and why?
 The solitude. Sometimes I just do not want to be around physical people.
5.  If you could have dinner with anyone past or present, living or dead, who would it be?
My Daddy
I am doing a meme from 


It just may be a good way to get myself involved in my blogging again. Life has been crazy lately and I need relief! Thanks Barbara.  

Sunday, May 6, 2012

I cried today

I had to leave the room right after taking Pat's blood pressure today. It hurt so much to see his arms. Just a few months ago they were defined and muscular. Today I could almost put my hand around them. I feel so helpless watching him.

Tuesday, January 24, 2012

Different life now

My life right now is so very different than what I imagined it would be. I pictured me with 4 kids ,a husband, grandkids. A life filled with love, health and happiness and sharing it with family.  When that bubble burst, it exploded into a million pieces.Other than myself, not one person knows even half of what my life has been like, not my best friend, not Pat, not my family.
One day I had dreams again, only to come to the realization that dreams are dreams and will not be reality.