Thursday, September 30, 2004

So far today

So far today it has been a really good day. Got up at 5 this morning and did a little housework (yuck). My daughter is home now and it has been fairly peaceful. She and Brook started cleaning Brook's room yesterday evening because I refused to. I til Brook that she did it so cleans it. The reason I said that is she hit it like a whirlwind in one day and totaled it! Dumped all toys out looking for one and it just slowly got worse after that. Already there is one bag of toys ready to go to Goodwill and another half full.

Brook missed the bus this morning, my fault. I was not paying attention to the time. Candiac got up and we took Brook to school and we headed to Walmart. I needed a few groceries and she just wanted to get out of house. We went to the toy section and put Christmas on layaway. We got Brook one of those BIG remote control cars, a Hummer. She has a small car but it does not do good outside and she loves playing with it. She is a bit of a tomboy that loves dolls too. We also got her a Bratz doll with a few things to go with it. She got one for her birthday and wants more.

My daughter rode Belle today.She did rather good, both of them.I can hear her giggling outside with Pat. I like hearing that sound.They are getting ready to ride Belle and Crystal down to the creek. Hopefully,tomorrow we will be able to ride together.


Wednesday, September 29, 2004

Must be quiz week

Saw this quiz over at MySoCalledCrazyLife and thought I would take it. My results are well......

Monday, September 27, 2004

My season


You're a Winter. You very much enjoy your time
alone but do like other people's company
sometimes. You just need your space. You have a
few priviledged friends who saw past your
colder exterior to find the true you. You can
have pretty bad mood swings (though you hate to
admit it) so you could be soft one second then
storming around the next! But over all, you're
a very pleasant person once people take the
time to get to know you. You're a good friend
for in-depth talks. You're very talanted when
it comes to creative things.

What season are you? (pics)
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Sorry I have not been around the last couple of days. I am trying to get the house and me ready for my daughter's homecoming. She will be home Wednesday. I am happy that she is coming home and a bit sad. Sad, because now I will have to share Brook with her physically. I know that Brook will not love me any less with her mama here. I won't love her any less. I will miss being her mama. I am having a hard time with it. I knew it would not be forever but I wanted it to be. My emotions are going every which way. Pat and I are getting on each others nerves and I know it is because of this. He is afraid of losing her too. We will get through this. We have too. Brook and Candiac need us.

Saturday, September 25, 2004

Be happy now not later

Be happy with what you have….


While working for what you want.

I am upset

It has taken me a couple of days to even think about writing this.

Thursday, Belle got out and went next door. She did this while we were at taekwondo and eating dinner. On our way home from dinner we recieved a phone call from our next door neighbor. He said that Belle was out and had been over there a lot and if we did not get her now then he was going to call 911. We hurried home and got Belle. Remember the fence that had been cut about a month ago? Well it is down again. Our neighbor, and I use that term loosely as he is no "neighbor", cut the grass beside it earlier that day. I had not really paid any attention to it except for the fact that Belle was running around acting rumbuncious. I had just checked the fence the day before so I knew it was good. Now, that is not what has made me so angry. I am angry because he SHOT her in the ass with something. From the size of the hole I would say a BB gun. Belle is not a dangerous animal therefore there is no reason to shoot her at all! In the ass. I mean come on now, that means the animal was going away from you. Even if it was a dangerous animal, if you shoot it in the ass it is GOING AWAY FROM YOU NOT ATTACKING!!!!!

I called the police and made a report. I did not see him do it so I cannot charge him with anything. The police do have him listed as a suspect.

Pat was ready to kill him.

Do you even have a personality?

I took a personality quiz today. I found the link in Lori's journal For the most part it does describe me. If you would like to take it Click here

Personality Type Report for Celeste Your Personality Preferences INTROVERT
While you may not be anti-social, you do need (and deserve) your private time and space to retreat from the world. Unlike extroverts, you need to develop a concept of the world or some aspect of it before experiencing it. Too much socializing may sap your energies. Your energies are derived from exploring the inner world of ideas, impressions and pure thought. SENSORY
You usually gather information with your senses: what you can see, hear, taste, touch and smell in the physical world. The facts gathered from the sensory data you process are the building blocks of your model of our world. You concentrate your energies on what actually exists and do not ponder what might exist too much. You are usually practical and rely on your common sense to guide you through the world. You see things as they are and have little or no need to search for underlying meanings. PERCEIVING
You like to have as much information as possible before making a decision. Putting off a final decision until the last moment does not make you uncomfortable. Indeed once a decision is made, a course plotted, you may feel a bit uneasy, because you feel bound to a certain course of action. You would much prefer to wait and see what happens. You enjoy the opportunity to improvise. Commitments are not etched in stone to you, and are changeable. FEELING
You make decisions subjectively based upon your values and what is important to you. How people will be affected by your decisions is important to you. You are likely to make decisions based upon what you feel is acceptable and agreeable rather than what is logical. Your truths are founded in your values and those of the society you live in. It is important to remember that we are discussing how you evaluate data and make decisions, and that you rely on your feelings to do so in no way implies you are overly emotional. Your Personality Type Introvert/Sensing/Feeling/Perceiving

You like to do things for others in your own, quiet way. By nature you are gentle, loyal and compassionate. You accept others as they are and rarely pass judgment on anyone. You have little or no need to dominate others. Conflicts are very disturbing to you. You live in the here and now and find pleasure in life's simplest gifts.

In relationships you are kind, loyal, and nurturing. You make a good listener and are sympathetic to the needs of others. You are the one that can get your friends and loved ones through a difficult period, even if you yourself are suffering. You are very perceptive of others. You will avoid conflict whenever possible, and must be careful not to let more aggressive personality types overwhelm you.

Famous People of Your Type:

Marie Antoinette, Auguste Rodin, Ulysses S. Grant, Millard Fillmore, Warren G. Harding, Fred Astaire, Doris Day, Marilyn Monroe, Liberace, Elizabeth Taylor, Yogi Berra, Dan Rather, Ervin "Magic" Johnson, Patrick Duffey, Paul McCartney, Michael Jackson, Kevin Costner, Greg Louganis, Brooke Shields, John Travolta.

Occupations Suited to Your Type Include:

Artist, beautician, botanist, carpenter, clerical specialist, dancer, designer, forester, gardener, geologist, marine biologist, mechanic, nurse, recreational leader, and teacher.


Friday, September 24, 2004

My Mama

Today was the day that my Mama was born in 1916. Happy birthday Mama. I am sure the angels are singing it to you.


This picture was taken on October 31st 2002. It is the last picure I have of my Mama.

This one is of her and Brook. My Mama loved Halloween. She enjoyed giving out the candy to the kids and seeing all of the scary costumes. She would laugh and hollar "oh you scared me!"

Wednesday, September 22, 2004


You have yellow wings! Calm, and peaceful, you
hardly stress and worry. Being around you makes
others feel happy and in tune. Even though you
are serious, you never over react or panic,
which can make you the perfect body guard.
Using logic, and thinking with quick wit, you
may be in a grave situation, and be able to
think your way through. You like doing quite
things, such as reading, and enjoy watching
sunsets, aquariums, and snow storms. At peace
in your soul, your yellow things reflect the
collected person you are.

What Color are your wings?(Mainly for Girls)Beautiful Pix!
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Tuesday, September 21, 2004


“You are never given a wish without also being given the power to make it come true. You may have to work for it however,”

Richard Bach, author


Have you given any thought to what you are going to do when the leaves change? I mean, besides raking them? I have. What I would like to do is go on a cruise up the Tennessee River on a riverboat. They have special cruises just for looking at the fall leaves along side the riverbanks. I probally will not be doing that as Pat's schedule may not allow it.  

Fall Color Cruise

October 18, 2004 - October 29, 2004

This 4-Hour Fall Leaf Cruise into the Tennessee River Gorge sails round-trip to and from Ross's Landing. The crusie includes a deluxe deli buffet of turkey, roast beef , ham, swiss & american cheeses, hoagie sub rolls, wheat & white bread, lettuce, tomatoes, pickles, etc., Homemade Baked Beans & Cole Slaw, Potato Chips, Soft Drinks, Iced Tea and Coffee and Moon Pies ( made right here in Chattanooga) , the Riverboat Ramblers will be performing on the first deck playing music ranging from Patsy Cline's "Crazy", Tennessee Waltz, Sweet Georgia Brown and alot more!  Informative commentary on the promenade(3rd)deck, free bingo with prizes on the second deck!  Make reservations soon, these sell out !

  The other thing I would like to do is go to Mentone, Alabama and DeSota State Park. In the pioneer spirit of the explorer, DeSoto Park ranges over 5,067 acres along Little River. Accented by rushing waterfalls and fragrant wildflowers, the park enhances the pioneer spirit with a unique restaurant, resort and cabin facilities. Also nestled into the lush, green mountain foliage of Lookout Mountain, the park provides a modern campground, laundry and camp store as well as a picnic area, swimming pool, tennis courts, nature center and many miles of hiking trails. Along the extensive scenic drive in the park, you can photograph DeSoto Falls, Little River Falls, and many magnificent vistas along Little River Canyon; the deepest canyon east of the Mississippi River

Musically, the name says it all!  Mentone literally means, "musical mountain spring," and while natural cascades and rippling streams create a melody all their own, it's the sound of church chimes and harmonizing homefolk that draw the most interest, musically, today.

As a special place, Mentone qualifies naturally!  It simply has everything good you'd expect to find in a mountain environment -- clean streams; lush fragrant flora; unobstructed vistas; cool temperatures; and a certain peacefulness so hard to find nowadays.  The air here is clear and crisp.  There are no flashing neon signs -- no shopping malls -- no traffic jams.  There's almost nothing to remind you of the city.  Streets (more like lanes) are narrow and twisting paths of little resistance, with cottages tucked here and there.  The poets have said it best...

Mentone, a place the Great God built,        

Up near the sunlit sky,

There life is new and friends are true           

   And days too quickly fly;

Where wearied souls regain their power     

              And  sorrows leave in the night.

Where peace is born with each new morn, 

       A haven of joy and delight.

                                   Sidney Lanier Gibson

Monday, September 20, 2004


"Only when the clamor of the outside world is silenced will you be able to hear the deeper vibration. Listen carefullly."

-Sarah Ban Breathnach, best-selling author

The outside world is carried within ourselves. In order to quieten it first you have to find peace in your heart and mind. Once that peace has been found, then listening can occur. How do we find that peace? Oddly enough, by listening.

Brook and Belle

Brook and Belle have always had a history together. Belle was born while I was in the hospital after breaking my back. Brook was so thrilled for that to have happened. I remember her telling me that now she had a horse. From day 1 Belle has been hers, at least in her mind. When Belle was about 2 months old she kicked Brook in the belly. A 2 month old colt has a lot of wallop in its kick, plus it has those pointy hooves that hurt. Poor Brook had this horrible bruise on her little tummy. I though Pat was going to die because his baby got hurt. Later on that day Pat was giving Crystal a bath and he turned around and there was Brook giving Belle a bath too! You would think she would not want to be around her after being kicked. Not Brook, this child was born with the love of horses in her. Brook was the first one to get on Belle's back. Pat did that behind my back. Brook came running in the house and told me what she had done. I was furious! Mad at him for putting my baby in danger and mad because I could not take a picture of it!  About a year later Brook was also the first and only one to get thrown from Belle. That I saw. I can see it today in slow motion everytime. It was a long time before Pat would let Brook near Belle again. That day stopped the training of Belle. Recently Pat has started working with Belle again. She is turning into a fine little filly. She does well with him. Yesterday Brook rode her by herself. Belle did good. Still  green but learning to obey very well.

Flood Survivor

Went walking the other day and found a flood survivor. A hornet's nest right where the water was about a foot and half deep. I have no idea how it could have survived the rush of water that went thru there. This nest is on the ground. See the hole in front? Theere are hornets flying in and out there. I pass that everyday on my way to get Brook. It is right beside the driveway. Any suggestions on what to do about it? My daughter is allergic to bee stings. Brook has never been stung so I do not know if she is or not. But with hornets, it really does not matter. They will sting you so much that it can kill someone that has no allergies.

 On the other hand, it is a beutiful nest isn't it?



Friday, September 17, 2004

SAD news

Thee is a place in Chattanooga ,Tennessee called Community Kitchen. It is a place that serves meals to the homeless and others. Since Jan. 1st this year it has served over 83,000 meals. All of the food supply and some of the equipment was destroyed by the floods from Ivan. There are hungry people tonight that normally would have a meal. One of the television stations is setting up a food drive to replace the food that was lost.

Plenty of people miss their share of happiness; not because they never found it, but because they don't stop to enjoy it.
- William Feather -

Rain is over

The rain is over I hope. The sun came out just a little while ago. It is behind clouds now. There is a brisk breeze blowing, the clouds are moving across the sky. The blue I can see is like blue you see no other time of the year. It is so clear. Fall is almost here. Brook is outside in the pool we just got. To cold for me with the wind blowing but for a bored 7 year old it is perfect.

The rain has caused the backyard to flood and with the floods comes the ants.

They march in like they own the place.  This is my house not theirs!

The kitties have shown up, some wet, some dry but all were hungry! The dog was laying up against the door this morning when I got up.

 I walked outside and took a look around. the damage is small. My screen house is full of holes now, half of the gutters are destroyed. The pool has a bit too much water in it as does the water trough. One thing I saw that just made my day... a bluebird was sitting on the fence post singing its heart out. I could not hear it but I could see it had its head up and was flapping its wings. Pat said it was a pretty sound. All in all we came out of this pretty good.

The power was out all morning. When it finally came on I had missed the noon news. I will catch the evening news and see what damage has been done elsewhere.


Thursday, September 16, 2004

The rain is here

The rain is here now along with the wind. It has been raining all day long but now it is torrential rain. It feels like large needles when it hits your skin. The water is coming down like sheets blowing in the wind. A short while ago I heard the tell tell sound of a large freight train overhead. I drew my breath in and said a prayer as I cuddled up to Brook on the couch, wondering if this time it would actually hit our home.

I went out a short time ago to take the horses some hay. Crystal and Precious were on the other side of the field separated from the barn by a flowing flood of water. Reluctantly they picked their way across the fast flowing foot deep water to come to the barn. They happily went into the barn and started on the hay. It will help them dry off and warm up. Belle was out in the yard trying to graze in the water. She was startled when I went out there. She eagerly started eating the hay I put down for her. I was drenched when I got through with feeding them.

I don't know where all the cats are. Some of the kittens are under the riding mower. I have not seen any of the adults cats. I wonder where the littlest babies are? Their mama is not the brightest bulb in the pack.

It is dark now and I can hear the thunder and the rain. The wind is blowing it against the window. The darkness is so thick that the night light in the yard is not lighting up anything. The television station keeps popping on and off. Shelters have been opened up in towns around me. They are expecting to have to evacuate some of the area. We are under a flash flood warning, flood warning, high winds warning, and a tornado watch.

The floods do not worry me, we are on high ground. I am worried about Pat driving home tonight. He has to go through ares where flash floods and high water may be. He also has to drive down a road that has a lot of trees lining it. My main fear is the tornados. They cannot be predicted and are so deadly.

I am going to save this now before the power goes out again. It usually does in these storms. Living out in the country  we are low on priority list to restore it too.

Wednesday, September 15, 2004

The ride

Pat and I went riding this morning. Precious is so fat that she does not want to let anyone ride her. To bad I am going to ride! She has this thing where if she does not want to do something she starts backing up. Now backing up is not the easiest thing for a horse to do. Their muscles and joints are not made for it. It is a taught behavior not a natural one. In nature horses turn around not back. Anyway back to the ride. Precious did not want to go thru the gate to go out in the field to ride, she started backing. She is a champion backer let me tell you! I had her head pulled back towards her butt.. I mean tail so hard it looked like that was where it belonged! She kept on backing... and backing until she had backed up about 30 feet. Finally she got tired of it and decided to go thru the gate. But wait NOT over yet... she decided that in order to go thru it she had to put me into gate post, lucky for me and maybe her she stopped before my leg hit it. Into the field we went. It was a cool 70 degrees with a light wind blowing. The leaves are falling off of some of the trees now. The squirrels are jumping from tree to tree and down to the ground to gather up their nuts. Bees are buzzing around gathering up the fall pollen to fill their hives. Overhead were 4 buzzards gracefully floating on the air currents casting shadows across the fields below them. At times they would swoop low enough that I could see their red head and yellow hooked beaks. Precious was just plodding along like an old nag because she is so fat. When we get back to the front field our neighbors pup caught a baby rabbit and took off with it. Pat said the poor thing was squealling so loud! He took off after the puppy, Crystal was very willing to do that. She is not fond of dogs. The pup finally let go of the baby. Pat found it and picked it up, it was still alive and apparently unhurt, but it was slobbery wet! He took it back across the field close to where it was caught at and released it. I hope it survives. Sometimes a wild animal with human scent on it will be killed by the others. Precious decided the ride was over. Nope I made her ride for another 30 minutes. She needs the exercise as much as I do!  I hope we can do it again tomorrow.

Tuesday, September 14, 2004

Fun Day

I am a little behind on everything but I am catching up. Sunday we went to Lake Winnie fro Brook's birthday. Want pictures? Yes? Well here goes!

Arthor and somebody            Pat being bored LOL

Gotta have funny mirrors           One happy kiddo

Pirate Ship ride                       Carousal rides are great

 And of course Papaw has to get his Brook  a prize!

We had a good time there but I was glad to come home.

I'm ok

First of all, I want to thank each and everyone of you for your comments to me, public and private. It really meant a lot to me. I was never taught how to express my emotions when I was younger. I learned to hide what I was feeling. I released my emotions when I was reading books.

I do not have a lot of childhood memories. My earliest memory is that of a woman crying and holding me. I recounted that memory to my mama one time and was told that the woman I described was my Grandmother that died when I was less than a year old. Another memory was one of me trying to reach for some pretty, sparkling lights and then falling. I remembered that after seeing a chandelier in my Aunt’s house. It turned out to have been the very same one that I saw when I was 1 year old. It was packed up that year and placed in storage not to be opened for a dozen years. My mama and aunt remembered me falling down a flight of stairs and knocking myself out, I remembered why I fell. My memories are sketchy. I often wonder why I have memories that I do. I look back trying to remember happy ones and find very few of them. I remember sitting in my daddy’s lap while he read the paper or watched the evening news. I remember getting up at night and getting in bed with my parents and my daddy carrying me back to bed. He would tuck me in and kiss my forehead. I remember proudly giving him my report card to sign. He had a beautiful signature. He wrote with a Parker fountain pen.

A lot of people have pictures to look at to spark a memory. My brother and sisters do, as does my niece and nephew do that moved in with us when I was young. The pictures were not there of me. I guess that is why I like to take pictures now. I took lots of my daughter when she was growing up but most were lost. Her father kept almost all of the ones when she was a baby and she took the others when she got older and lost them. She did not have a happy childhood and she will need those few pictures I have left of some of those few times to help spark memories. I take lots of pictures of Brook. There are a lot of pictures of her doing the same things but I do not care. Her past is now and these pictures represent that.

The past is past but it still weighs on me everyday of my life. The things that I experienced are always there, some of them too close and fresh in my memory. No, I was not abused as a child. My choices I made in my life are what haunts me. They are the ones that come back to me and mock me. Someday I may get up the courage to write about them. I look back at them and I think to myself that if I wrote a book about my life who would believe it? I am amazed myself. I am really amazed I am alive.

I am alive. I will not allow this to control my life anymore. I do have too much left to do and I cannot do it feeling like death. Today I am fighting to regain control in myself, to like myself again. I will succeed. I must because life is here and I need to live.

Friday, September 10, 2004

thinking again

I have been sitting here thinking about what am I going to write. Several times this morning I have started an entry and then deleted it. My mind has gone wandering off and I do not know where. I looked at the words I had writen and asked my self what is this? I then hit the red x. That does not happen so much when I type it in Works. You hit the x there and it asks you if you want to save the changes made to the document. I do not know where I am going with this. I am not sure where I am going with anything.

I was reading in a few journals this morning and in John's By The Way journal he has a weekend assignment to post what you would put in a time capsule for your great whatever child to open in 100 years. I started thinking, what can I put in there that would show my life. I did not like or love myself most of my life. Would I want that to be known to them? Should I sugarcoat everything and pretend that everything is okay and life was grand? I have a lot more thinking about that. I do not know what to do.

I was reading another journal that is private and in it the author was talking about how someone read the journal and threw it up in their face. It caused me to think. Do I not write about certain things because I am afraid that someone I know will read it? Or do I not write because I am afraid that others will read it and judge me? It is my day and my thoughts, why do I restain myself? Then I thought, I have always restrained myself. I hold myself back. I do not like pain and this is pain.

I am hitting save now and going outside. Maybe I will leave this in my journal, I do not know.

Wednesday, September 8, 2004

Brook's birthday


Today is Brook's 7th birthday. She is all excited about it. She got cupcakes at school


She goes to a different group in TaeKwonDo tomorrow. She gets a small party with just us at home on Saturday and Sunday we are going to LakeWinnepesaukah It is a great place to go. A lot of the big country stars have played there before they got big and some even after they did. They have free concerts on Sundays and great rides like this one here

 a big wooden roller coaster called The Cannonball. You can rest assured I will be taking a lot of pictures. Gotta go time to go to bus stop and get her!

Tuesday, September 7, 2004


I just watched the end of a show called Extreme Home Makeovers and started crying. This family was given an entirely new home. no that si not what brought on the tears, it was why they got it. The female head of the house had donated her bone marrow 3 years ago to someone that she did not know. The child is alive today and a  beautiful 3 year oldgirl. The mother of the little girl that recieved the bone marrow had nominated her to get this house. It was so touching to see these people meet for the first time. A life was saved thanks to thsi generous woman. Who knows where this little girl could end up now.

If you are interested in learning more about bone marrow donations start by checking out these sites:

Red Cross   National Marrow Donor Program   DonorInformation  


brook was reading a book to me tonight and there was a word in it that she did not know, polliwogs. Wel she asked me what's a polliwog and I told her a baby frog. She said no, that is a tadpole. I got curious because it created a dought in my mind so I had to look it up. Yes, polliwogs and tadpoles are the same thing. The definition is polliwog is the larva of a frog or toad that has a rounded body and a long tail, breathes with gills and lives in water.   

There you go ladies and gentlemen, your science lesson for the day.

Labor Day

Labor Day was just that labor. I enjoyed every single minute of it. First thing I did was start cooking. I put my ribs on to slow cook and got ready to go out for breakfast. I then got the rest of the dinner made. Baked beans in the fridge waiting to go in later corn ready to cook and my Orange Fluff in the fridge waiting to be eaten! Oh yes and bread in the maker timed for later. So off we went to Sonic's for breakfast for me and Pat and lunch for Brook. Next on our stop was Walmart. Pat wanted to shop for Brook's birthday present. She thought we were looking for stuff to write on her list to Santa. Sneaky huh? Brook and I wandered around and found the clearance stuff out in the Patio Shop. SO.......... guess what I bought? A swimming pool that was less than half price. It is only 16 feet X 39 inches but that is enough to keep Brook happy. She wanted us to set it up right away! Of course with the storm coming thru we could not do that. Back home we went and everything was getting ready. Pat decided to go out and do some cutting before the rain came. We then ate too much!!!! Afterwards he rode Belle. I tried to get on her but she was having none of that! We will keep trying because she has to let others ride her besides Pat. The rest of the day was spent playing games on the computer in POGO.    


"God made rainy days so gardeners
could get the housework done." 
-Author Unknown
  All I have to say is I guess I better get on to doing the housework. It is raining and is supposed to rain for the next couple of days. The wind is blowing and occasionally the rain goes sideways. Not causing too much trouble right now. Hopefully we will not get any tornados. Belle is unhappy right now. She has gotten used to me letting her out in the morning to graze the front yard. There is no way I am going to chase a horse down in the rain to put her back in the backyard. Brook is off to school in her new black raincoat. She has been waiting for the day to come when she could wear it. Arthur is visiting me and will probably be here for a couple of days as long as the rain persists. That is it for now. I need to rub some stuff on my hands so they will ove better.

Sunday, September 5, 2004

You’re wrong when you think that life’s picking on you; all life is doing is trying to build character.~unknown If this is character building then I want no part of it. I am tired of building my character. All I want is some peace in my life.

Friday, September 3, 2004


My sweetie pie Brook is turning 7 on the 8th. I cannot believe how the time has flown by. It seems like yesterday I was watching them cut her out. She was the sweetest baby, rarely cried. I took her in for her 6 week checkup and she had an ear infection, never cried or pulled at ear. I used to keep her while her mama went to work. One day after being off several days she brought her over and went to work. Brook did not want to eat. Now she was a good eater. I felt her little tummy (she was about 2 months old) and it was hard as a rock. She was straining to poop. Well I grabbed the old mercury bulb thermometer and greased it up and stuck it in. When I pulled it out that baby pooped for a good 10 minutes. I called her mama at work and asked her when was the last time she went poopy. She said she had not all weekend. I let her have it. She did not know better. Brook just smiled thru out the whole thing. She took her first step with me and said her first word to me. I fed her her first food. I saw her first when she was born. I have had all of her firsts. She said to me the other day when my mommy moves out, I am going to do like last time. I said what was that. She said stay with mommy some and stay at home with you some. I cried. She was barely 3 when that was happening. My world will fall apart when she leaves.

My fav

Weekend Assignment 22: Got a photo you really love?

This picture is one I love. It shows just how comfortable my 2 babies are with each other. No matter what is going on you can ususally find the 2 of them together and if they are still, they are probally sleeping! I probally have more pictures of them asleep than I do awake!



Today has started out to be a dreary day. First I stayed up wayyyyyyy to late. I was up until 2 am. Not smart considering I had to get up at 5:30 am. When I got up I could barely move. My back was giving me a fit. I could barely feel my right leg because of it. So I went in and doubled up on my meds, got Brook up and off to school and I went back to bed. I am feeling better now. The meds kicked in and reduced the pain. The pain has a double cause, first I endured a bit of a rough spot on my ride the other day and second it is rainy . Rain and low pressure fronts always brings on the pain. It will get better. That is all for now. Back to reading my journals and watching my soaps.

Thursday, September 2, 2004

Quickie here

Wonder how long I will be able to stay on this time? Day 4 of the phone company coming out to fix my phone. Today they call me and tell me that they have finally found the phone box that had been mangled by county mowers. I had told them exactly where to find it. The box will have to be replaced. Wonder how long that will take? I kept both calls they made to me about it. If the phone company tries to slip in an extra charge on me I will go off on them. I pay enough as it is. They will continue to hear from me until it is fixed. AND when it is fixed I will be calling for a refund for not being able to fully use my phone service. Because I am hearing impaired I have to really pay close attention when I am on the phone in order to hear what is being said. I have volume control which helps me but it also amplifies the horrible crackling and popping noise.

Pat and I went riding this morning. We did not get to take a long ride. The winds were getting a bit too much. The horses were hearing spooks on the wind. We rode thru an area on very high grass and weeds which made Precious nervous, me too. When I was thrown from her and broke my back we were in high weeds. I think she may still have memories of that or maybe she could just feel my apprehension. I let Pat know what was going on and he immediately cut over to shorter grass. Precious stopped and saw where Crystal was on she broke out in a rack and headed straight to Crystal. She was relieved to get out of that.

Brook will be home shortly and we will be heading out. Have a couple errands to run before TaeKwonDo.

See everyone later. Give a hollar if you wish. By the way, if you could please leave your journal link even if you leave nothing else. For some reason I lost a lot of my journals I had on alerts. My alerts look empty. I only have 5 there and o boy did I have more than that! I do not have all my journal links in my favorite folder and I need to rectify that. Thanks.


Wednesday, September 1, 2004

And the day goes on

This morning I got up and ready to go to the doctor for a test involing my ears to check my balance or something like that because of my vertigo attack a few weeks ago. The phone is ringing as I am going out the door. I almost did not answer it. It was the doctor's office calling to postpone my appointment. Seems the doctor is out and they are not sure when she will be back. Oh well that meant I had to cook breakfast.

pat and I decided to ride the horses this morning. I was thrilled! I enjoy riding my Precious. Pat rode Belle. She is still very green broke. We were hoping that the ride with another horse would help her some, get her more used to being rode with oher horses. We did not count on her Mama's blue eyes turning green. Crystal is so jealous of Pat having anything to do with another horse. We were saddled up and riding down the drive when Crystal went ballastic out in the field. She was bucking and running and generally just raising hell. That did not go over well with Belle. It made her a nervous wreck. Lucky for me Precious is fat as a barrel so she did not get too excited. She did keep walking sideways so she could see Crystal. She does not like being separated from her. She did give one small jump that jarred my back. It is a little sore but no problem. We were on them for about 30 minutes. I am working with Precious to teach her neck reining. She has to be guided by plowing. Slowly but surely she is responding to the teaching. Belle is finally learning to stop so Pat can get off of her. She will stand there without being tied. That is a good thing. We have never used a lunge rope on her. I thinkit is rough on them to be forsed to run in a circle over and over to teach them something. It is hard on their young developing bones. The ride was not hard on the horses. Crystal was the only one that broke out in a sweat!

I went walking today out in the fields after Pat left for work. They are getting high and colorful. I can tell fall is on its way. The fall flowers are out in full bloom. The bees were busy gathering the pollen to make new honey and the pollen is busy making noses twitch!

 These are some of the light purple flowers I found, very small, tight clustered flowers.      Looking a little closer I found some small toadstools nestled down in the grass.  Next I came up to some blackeye susies  Of course they are slightly browneyed now.  I came around to the backside of my garden where I have been unable to mow and there I found the prettiest purple and yellow flowers.

    Then I came up to the sunflowersheads with some real creepy bugs on them..

That was my afternoon.