Friday, February 29, 2008

Just a biker

I don't know who wrote this. It is something all the non bikers should read.

Just a biker

I saw you, hug your purse closer to you in the grocery
store line. But you didn't see me put an extra $10.00
in the collection plate last Sunday.

I saw you pull your child closer when we passed each
other on the sidewalk. But you didn't see me playing
Santa at the local mall.

I saw you change your mind about going into the
restaurant when you saw my bike parked out front.
But you didn't see me attending a meeting to raise
more money for the hurricane relief.

I saw you roll up your window and shake your head
when I rode by. But you didn't see me riding behind
you when you flicked your cigarette butt out the car window.

I saw you frown at me when I smiled at your children.
But you didn't see me, when I took time off from work
to run toys to the homeless.

I saw you stare at my long hair. But you didn't see me
and my friends cut ten inches off for Locks of Love.

I saw you roll your eyes at our leather jackets and
gloves. But you didn't see me and my brothers donate
our old ones to those that had none.

I saw you look in fright at my tattoos. But you didn't
see me cry as my children where born or have their
name written over and in my heart.

I saw you change lanes while rushing off to go
somewhere. But you didn't see me going home to be with my family.

I saw you, complain about how loud and noisy our bikes
can be. But you didn't see me when you were changing
the CD and drifted into my lane.

I saw you yelling at your kids in the car. But you
didn't see me pat my child's hands knowing she was safe behind me.

I saw you reading the newspaper or map as you drove
down the road. But you didn't see me squeeze my wife's
leg when she told me to take the next turn.

I saw you race down the road in the rain. But you
didn't see me get soaked to the skin so my son could
have the car to go on his date.

I saw you run the yellow light just to save a fewminutes of time. But
you didn't see me trying to turn right.

I saw you cut me off because you needed to be in
the lane I was in. But you didn't see me leave the road.

I saw you, waiting impatiently for my friends to
pass. But you didn't see me. I wasn't there.

I saw you go home to your family. But you didn't
see me. Because I died that day you cut me off.

I was just a biker. A person with friends and a
family. But you didn't see me.

Repost this around in hopes that people will
understand the biker community.


Thursday, February 28, 2008

not sure lol

Hard to get motivated when you really do not want to get going. I have got to find some kind of inspiration or something. More than likely I need some vitamins or something. Yep that's what I need, some more pills to take. I need B but I cannot take B3 because of my Zocor.  Oh well. I will get some energy somewhere.

The cold came back. I was hoping it was over and Spring was here. March will be here Saturday.  maybe Spring will stick this time. One good thing I did not feel as achy this time with the cold. I guess that shot helped! LOL

My barn is the cleanest it has been all winter. It has been cleaned everyday.  makes me want a hired hand. Anybody have a daughter that needs to be disciplined? LOL My house needs cleaning. Or a son that cleans? LOL Is my laziness showing?

The babies are doing great. Two came out of the nesting box day before yesterday. I put them back that night so they would stay warm. They have not come back out. One of the babies is still without many feathers. It was born several days after the first 2. It is doing good. Chip is a good daddy. He makes sure to feed the littlest one first. It is a white bird like he is. The other 2 are pieds like Peaches is. I will get pictures when I get batteries for camera.

The horses are doing good. They think they are hungry because they have lost weight. Well they were fat. They needed to lose weight. Next month we will be taking Crystal to be bred. Gonna get a baby out of her. Maybe she will be nice to me after that. I doubt it. That horse does not like me.

Nothing is happening with me. I am just here.

Tuesday, February 26, 2008


I have lost myself. I have no idea where I went. Sometimes I just lose myself. My little anti social shell creeps back over my life and I hide again. I have to force myself to get going again.
Candy brought a  boy over this morning and put him to work cleaning out Crystal's stall. Yes I know it is a school day. This kid has decided to get suspended from school for 10 days. Not a good situation. In all I don't think he is a bad kid, just lost. He is an angry kid. He hates his mama because he does not have a father (his dead is a real deadbeat and a bad person that denies he has a kid) Jessie has not been told who he is.  He also hates her because she is gay. I have heard the young man talking about her and that is truly the only reason he ever says as to why. Somehow he has been taught that women cannot be in a position of authority. That a woman cannot be president because they ARE a woman. I don't understand him. His mother has always provided for him without assistance. She works hard to give him what he wants. This same little boy used to be  so sweet with her. Hugging and kissing and I love youing.
Anyway, Candy went and picked him up last night because she knew she would not be working today. She informed him that this morning he would be cleaning out stalls, rain or shine. This is a city boy not a farm boy. She let him know that suspension from school did not mean sitting around playing games and watching TV. Ok I need to do some cleaning. I have a lot to catch up on. I must clean. (I have to keep telling myself that)

Wednesday, February 20, 2008


I am alive! I am telling you that the flu is not pleasant! It hit me with no warning whatsoever. Saturday evening Pat and I go eat a steak( I am allowed to eat red meat once a week) Sunday we eat breakfast with the kids. Sunday afternoon I was out for the count. By Monday morning I felt dead. As a matter of fact I was wishing I was. I called the doctor's office and they had one appointment open for the day. My throat felt like I had swallowed ground glass and razor blades. My hips were screaming that I was severely abusing them. Every hair on my head wanted to fall out. I cannot tell you the number of times my eyes rolled back in my head and I went down for the count. My respiratory rate was between 40 and 60 breaths per minute. If the doctor had not been able to see me I would have gone to the ER. no doubt in my mind because I knew my rate had to come down and soon. Inhalers were doing no good for me. 
Once I got in the doctor's office I get tested for the flu. YUCK and ouch! They stick a swab up your nose! Dam that hurts. Yep it came back positive for flu. The doc wrote me a scrip for Tami flu  and gives me a steroid shot for my lungs. That shot burns! I have a sore spot there still.
I am better but weak as a kitten.
Brook tested positive for the flu also but she was too late for the flu medicine. It has to be taken in the first 48 hours. I cannot imagine how sick she would have been if she had not gotten the flu shot this year. The doctor said that it helped her from getting it as bad as it could have been. He did give her medicine for her sinus infection.
I do not recommend getting the flu to lose weight but I have lost 12 pounds in 4 days.
That's all for now.

Monday, February 18, 2008


 This is Brook. My mamaw is sick with the flu. She has never had the flu. I have the flu to. I gave the flu to my mamaw. I did not mean to give her the flu.

Saturday, February 16, 2008

this week

This week has been a pretty good week, I think. Well I guess overall it has been. Last Friday I went to the doctor for blood work and stuff. My A1C was great. Monday I get a call for me to come into the doctor's office for my test results. that sounded ominous. Usually I get the results over the phone. So Tuesday I went in . My cholesterol level was 229. Now I know that that is on the bad side but not generally a cause for alarm. In this case it was. My LDL was 199. that puts me in very high risk category for heart attack. I am now on Zocor to lower it.
Brook has been feeling a bit off all week. She has had a nagging cough. Last night it all came to a head. She started running a fever. It got up to 104.3 and broke. I am pretty sure it is just a virus. She is feeling tons better today.

It is a beautiful day today. Now if I can just get Pat motivated to get moving...

Wednesday, February 13, 2008

Special video

his is a very special video sent to me by a sweet friend of mine named Jill. Please watch it.   If I should die before You wake

Sunday, February 10, 2008

some stuff

We had a good time on the ride until my jaw started getting cold. That was when we headed home. BUT not before Pat ate fried chicken while I had mashed potatoes. Just did not seem fair somehow.
This morning I had to watch everybody eat biscuits and gravy, bacon and eggs. I made them suffer though. I drank my slim fast real slow and noisy! I made a point to slurp it thru my straw. Tonight I ate real food. I "chewed" it by pushing it up against my front teeth. It sure did take me awhile to finish eating but my tummy is happy. At least for now. It might not be so happy when it realizes that most of the food was not chewed up.
We rode the horses today. Johnny, my son in law, rode dancer. Poor thing, he fell off when Dancer started running. Now he is suffering. He is real sore. He has no idea how to ride. I do  not know why Dancer started running I was not present. All I know is a riderless horse came running back to the hitching post where I was at. I rode Dancer and he did not give me any trouble at all.
It was a pretty day today but a bit windy. Tomorrow will be a better day then the rain will be back. I need the grass to start growing. I am almost out of hay.
I need to get outside and do some yard cleanup. I would like to start Spring with a clean yard.
Well I am out of here for now. I hope everyone had a good weekend.

Saturday, February 9, 2008

headed out

Headed out for a ride on the motorcycle to celebrate the warm sunshine!

Friday, February 8, 2008

Doc and stuff

I went to the doctor this morning for blood work. My doctor was very pleased with the results of my A1C. It was 5.6 and my fasting blood was 110. He said that he wished all his diabetic patients would be like that. I am watchful of what I eat. I know I can have sweets but I also know I cannot over indulge in them. I am careful with the amount of carbs I eat. Overdoing it will cause highs and lows. I will get back the results of my thyroid test next week. I am hoping it is back in normal range. I hate getting blood work for that all the time and switching meds all the time. He told me to continue eating soft foods and liquid foods and resting my jaw. If it has not improved in a few weeks I will need to go to a dentist. Like that will happen.

Pat got his blood work back from his doc and it was normal. His calcium and magnesium level were being checked. He has been getting cramps in his hands. The doctor believes it is trigger finger. I am not so sure. I think it is more like swan neck. He has worked with his hands all his life and has suffered quite a few untreated injuries. I just hope that they hold out until retirement. He plans on retiring at 62 1/2. Sure he will have to take a reduction in SS but he is afraid because of his family history of heart disease (every male on his father side died in early 70's of heart disease and everyone on his mother's side has heart disease) that he will not live to enjoy retirement if he waits until 66 for full retirement

Brook is working hard at Tae Kwon Do. She is on the Demo Team again with a whole new group. I am just amazed at the improvement in her in just 1 year. She is growing up on me. She is also getting that smart mouth that will find a bar of soap in it if she is not careful!

Scampi is finally settling back down. Pup moved out on my. He moved up to where my daughter has moved to. Scampi has been going nuts. He would run away and go up there. It was killing him that Pup and Brook were both up there. He loves Brook to death. She has been staying here a bit more this week so he is settling back down. I bought a pet bed at Goodwill for $1 and he has moved into it. I bought it for Buddy but Scampi found it and got in it. It is a good thing. He was getting on the couch all the time now he goes to the bed! A dollar well spent.

I have birds anybody want 1? I do not know what I am going to do with them all! LOL It is hard to get rid of them. I need to contact a pet shop and see if they will buy them. Maybe I will put an ad in paper soon. I don't think you can put them on Craig's List.

We got 4 inches of rain in less than 2 hours the other day. There is still water around but it is disappearing fast. The water table is so low that it is sucking it up fast. I wish it would dry up fast in from of the barn! I hate walking in muddy horse poop and pee.

Officially I have lost 1 pound this month. BLAH. I have got to do better than that.

I am out of here. Y'all have a great weekend.

Wednesday, February 6, 2008

Life has been moving on.

Life has been moving on. I miss my Sebastian but I do not miss seeing him in misery. He may not have lived much longer on his own but it would not have been a good life. I placed him in a box that I had built for his finial resting place. He is buried down by the creek along side of Bear, Snowball and Miss Daisy and her unhatched ducklings. It is not marked by any stone or plaque. Nature will soon give him plenty of shade and greens and wild flowers. I will miss his help in the garden. He always watched me and made sure I did it right. I will never forget how he stayed by my side when I broke my back and endured strangers to come near him and touch him. I remember the rat he killed that dared come into the house and run across my bed while I was in it! It was a large, 10 pound rat! I will never forget all the times he pushed his head into my hands so I would pet him or the times I would cry into his fur.

I have been reading and lurking in the journals. I am sorry if I have not been commenting much.

My daughter is moved now. Brook is here more than she is there now. Makes me happy.

The babies are growing! New feathers are on the 2 oldest babies. The smallest is growing and thriving right now. I am keeping my eye on it in case I have to start feeding it myself.

Boy did we ever get rain last night or rather early this morning. It poured. My yard was flooded and so was the field. It has been a long time since I have seen so much water in my yard. I feel for all the people who lost homes and loved ones from this storm system.

I will lose weight now. I am being forced to eat soft foods only. Foods that do not require chewing! I have TMJ (self diagnosed). I looked it up and there were all my symptoms. I have had 2 serious jaw injuries on that side, one hairline fracture and a dislocation once. I cannot afford to go to dentist and have them tell me what to do. Only severe cases need surgery. The best treatment is rest of the jaw, therefore, no chewing, no yelling, no singing(like I could sing LOL), hot moist compresses, etc. It will get better soon I hope.

Monday, February 4, 2008


Rest in peace my friend. Until we meet again.

Sebastian February 1, 1988 - February 4, 2008


Sunday, February 3, 2008


Contentment isn't getting what we want, but being satisfied with what we have.

How many can say they are truly content? Most people say they are and in the next breath talk about what they want.

Saturday, February 2, 2008

Groundhog Day

 General Beauregard E. Lee may not be as famous as Punxatawney Phil, but  Lee has a much higher rate of accuracy, with an impressive 93 percent to Phil's 37 percent. Today he predicated that we would get an early spring! Phil said 6 more weeks of winter weather. I do not know if I am happy or sad. Happy because grass will grow, sad because the bugs will live.