Thursday, March 31, 2005


I have a cold. A comman everyday cold. I am sneezing and I really hate that. My nose is stopped up and I am dribbling. Ok maybe that was telling too much!

Brook has her first preformance tomorrow. Next month she will be preforming in a talent search. That will be fun! LOL. Hey she is cute. That counts for a lot in those stupid shows. And she will be on TV. LOL

Oh yes , she is taking her purple belt test tomorrow. There will also be 2 girls taking their black belt test too.

Does anyone know of a computer program (cheap or free)to learn Korean? She wants to learn to speak it.

Well that's it for me. I need to take my shower and drain my nose.

Wednesday, March 30, 2005

Stupid insurance

The doctor's office called this morning. They decided to give Brook a different prescription. It was so much of a hassle to get it approved that one of the other doctor's in the practise called in a different prescription for her. Actually it is one that I like better. She willnow be taking Advair. Now this is the funny thing, the pulmicort would cost $98 for a 3 month supply, The Advair is $140 for a 30 day supply. Now which one would you think is more cost effective for the insurance company? It pays 100% of cost for Brook's prescriptions.

My eye is better, still sore but the oozing has quit for now.

Pat's back is still hurting. He is not taking the pills anymore and now he really feels it. Good. That will keep him from doing something he is not supposed to do. He goes back to doctor on 11th of April.

That's it for now. Back to folding laundry!

Thankful Wednesday

Joolsinwa is going to try something in her journal called Thankful Wednesday. This is where everyone either leaves a comment or link to a journal entry about what they are thankful for.

I am going to start out with this one. I am thankful for AOL journals. Thru them I have made some new friends. there has been sharing of grief and joy, love and hurt, anger and happiness. My journal gives me an outlet that I do not have in my off line life.

How about you? What are you thankful for?


This was edited from Tuesday to Wednesady!

***make sure to leave a link in Jools journal!

A quiz

I got this from Mortimer's Cafe. I laughed when I read the results.


a vegetable garden
You are 'growing one's own food'. You are guided by two words: 'Live simply.' You
value quality over quantity in most things, and
you have little use for the materialism and
consumerism of modern culture. You know the
value of hard work and try to be
self-sufficient as much as possible, and what
you do you do well. Unfortunately, no man is
an island, and you cannot do everything
yourself. Your puritanical work ethic makes
makes people think that you are weird, and not
much fun. Your problem is that growing one's
own food has been obsolete for a long time.

What obsolete skill are you?
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Tuesday, March 29, 2005

Today was a mixed bag. I got up and did my stuff. Clean livingroom, make breakfast, you know normal stuff.  I needed to get my stuff done early because Brook had a doctor's appointment. Her asthma has been a bit off this week and I felt it was time to go. Anyway i vacuumed the floor nas then I got out my little hand vac to do around the bird cage, It is in the living room and it gets rather messy around it.  We have a tree limb for them to climb on and chew on. This leaves little pieces of wood all under it. Now I know this limb is there. I put it there. i bend over with my little vac and whap I put one of the little branches clean in my eye! Not just a poke, it went between my eyeball and socket bone! Came out with a popping sound. Let me tell you, instant tears and pain! I just held my eye for a bit and cried. Then Pat made me move my hand so he could see. No blood thank goodness. I popped my contact out and thank goodness it was not hurt. that contact costs $200 and it has to be special ordered. Well my eye got to feeling better so I put it back in. On to Brook. I got her to doctor's office and had to see the doc that I really don't like but had no choice. He was actually nice this time and did not treat me like an idiot. He listened to Brook's lungs real close. He must have kistened for a good 5 minutes. He is putting her on Pulmacort to be taken twice a day. I was afraid that would happen. He also prescribed a new cough medicine for her, BETATAN. It is blue and she hates the taste! The inhaler has to be approved and I was told it could take up to 24 hours to get it approved! This is outrageous! It is asthma medicine for heavens sake!And for a child! I could understand it is was something that would get you high or another drug could be made with it. So stupid. Oh well nothing I can do about it.

Brook and I had a picnic today. We picked up some wings and chips and beans and went to park and ate. Then off to Tae Kwon Do we went. She did fine thru the first hour. Then about halfway thru the second hour she was a litle out of it. By the time the third hour started she was down. Master Lee told her she could go home. No fever or anything, just wiped out. Her throat is sore though, Sinus drainage. So we made it home early tonight. Good thing too. My eye is starting to swell up. I may have to call eye doc tomorrow.

Monday, March 28, 2005

The weekend

I hope everyone had a wonderful weekend. Despite the weather predictions that it would be storming all day Saturday it was a great day! I spent most of the day in and out of the kitchen preparing my Easter dinner. I wanted to be able to enjoy the short time I would have with my family on Sunday when they arrived. The sun was shining and it warmed up to in the 70's. Pat enjoyed a bit of skeet shooting with a couple of boys that came over. He used my 20 gauge shotgun as the 12 has a bit of a kick and is a bit heavy. He did not want to test his back at all! The horses did not like that and came into the front field. Except for Belle. She stood there by the fence and watched them shoot. She is not gun shy. LOL.
Yesterday morning my daughter brought Brook home so she could get her basket and attend church with me. Brook was thrilled with her basket. She got a doll with a purple dress on. She is getting a nice collection of them. The bunny had left eggs laying around and she had no trouble finding them! We got dressed for church and off we went.
After church I finished up lunch. Nothing left to do except put the glaze on the ham and pop the squash casserole and the rolls in the oven. Pat had already turned the water on for the corn. Brook set the table. Everything went smoothly. LOL now I had told the kids to be here at 1. I knew they would be late so I did not plan to eat until 2 and I was right! They got here and hugs and kisses all around and then we sat down to eat. We had ham with honey and brown sugar glaze, potato salad, macaroni salad, squash casserole, green beans, corn on the cob, deviled eggs, rolls, and of course, Orange fluff. Everyone ate too much and then they went outside to ride the horses. I stayed in as it was way to windy for me! Lol it was for them too and they finished up fast and came back inside. The kids left to go over to his mams house and lol they were late there too. Poor things, they probably gained 10 pounds yesterday!
Anyway, the weekend was a wonderful time. Friends and family and good times make life so good. I am looking forward to many more!
Flylady would be happy with me. My sink was shining as I went to bed. I got up this morning and smiles because my kitchen was clean!

Saturday, March 26, 2005

Saturday 6

Once again I play the Saturday Six.

1. Do you believe that Terri Schiavo should be allowed to die or that she should be kept alive?
I believe she shoulld be allowed to die.
2. Has the Schiavo case made you take any action towards creating a living will of your own?
I already had a living will and a medical Power of Attorney. I revieved it to make sure everything was okay.
3. Let's forget what we know -- or more likely, what we think we know -- about Schiavo's condition.  If you suffered a brain injury that would leave you in a non-responsive vegetative state (whether Schiavo is in this state or not) and your doctors said that there was so much brain damage that there would be no hope of recovery, would you want to be kept alive no matter what?
I do not want to live in that state. I do not want my family to suffer because of it.
4. Has anyone outside of your immediate family ever asked you to be their "personal representative" to make such a decision on their behalf if they ever suffer a severe injury?  Do you think you could really make the decision?
My mother asked me and my sister both. I would of had no problem doing her wishes.
5. Do you have a special outfit ready for Easter Sunday?  Does your family have any special Easter traditions?
I will be wearing an outfit that belonged to my Mother. Easter baskets,new white shoes and ham is our family traditions.
6. What room of your house is the absolute messiest?  Would you ever let a house guest see it?
My bedroom. I don't want anybody to see it but somehow everyone ends up in there!

Friday, March 25, 2005

have you thought?

I was reading an entry today in a new journal that I just started reading. It was so full of comman sense and comman courtsy advice on  to dos and look out fors. Give it a read. It could open your eyes about some things you never even though of. Click here

headline news

I am of an age that I remember Vietnam. I knew people that died there. I remember the protests in the streets and on the television. I saw pictures on the evening news of the fighting going on over there and over here. I remember POW/MIA bracelets. I can still hear Nixon promising to end the war and seeing him flash the peace symbols. I can recall hearing of the men that went to Canada to dodge the draft. I saw our soldiers get off planes and being spit on and yelled at for being baby killers.
I did not like the war. I had a bracelet, my POW came home. My uncle was against the war. He was in the Air Force. They forced retirement on him. I saluted the soldiers that did fight that war. I felt no resentment for the ones that fled the country without enlisting when they were called up.
Deserters are a different story. They are the true cowards. Yes, I said coward.
Everyone is the Army today is a volunteer. No one was drafted. Each and every person there opted to be there. There is always the chance that when you sign up that there will be a war. That is why when you sign up you have the opportunity to register as a conscientious objector. You do not wait until time to be sent to war. There are many jobs in the Army that do not require you to fire a shot. You pick one of those jobs not the PARATROOPERS! And yes, you do get to pick jobs. Nowadays you know what job you will have before you even sign on the dotted line.
Canada has denied political asylum to an Army deserter. Bravo.

I just realized that today is the anniversary of my marriage to a very horrible man. How horrible? He was a child molester and an adulter. A thief that stole my child's childhood and my trust.

I have risen above that to a certain extent. I will never forget and I cannot forgive.


I did it. I went yesterday and put in my application yesterday at Walmart. We will see how it comes out. It was frusterating because the machine would not do good. It has a touch screen which meant beating on the screen at least a dozen times each screen.

Yesterday morning after I took Brook down to the bus stop my dear sweet neighbor stopped me. He had just placed a cage in the back of his truck, I could see that it had a small animal in it. He tells me," if you want your cat you can go to the Humane Society to pick it up. I am going to thin out the cat population around here." What a jerk. I look at the cat and I tell him okay you do that. BTW that is not my cat. Well apparently he tells them that it is my cat because by the time I got home from Walmart there was a card stuck in the door from the animal control officer. I called him but he was not in. He never called me back.

He is such a petty little man. He is still teed off at me because I testified in court about his bull charging me. I was not going to lie about it. He is also teed off because I am friends with his ex wife. And the really really big thing is he is just mad beacause the courts are allowing his ex to sale off the property that they jointly owned. This was supposed to have taken place a long time ago but he has been in contempt of court by refusing to sign sale papers. The sad thing is he will not be moving. He is living in his mother's house.

I avoid him but at times he forces his way into my life by doing crappy stuff like that.

Little man, if you can call him a man.

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

another quiz

I got this from sistercdr. I am getting hooked on these things!

The Prioress
You scored 21% Cardinal, 64% Monk, 52% Lady, and 37% Knight! You are a moral person and are also highly intellectual. You like your solitude but are also kind and helpful to those around you. Guided by a belief in the goodness of mankind you will likely be christened a saint after your life is over.

You scored high as both the Lady and the Monk. You can try again to get a more precise description of either the Monk or the lady, or you can be happy that you're an individual.


Link: The Who Would You Be in 1400 AD Test written by KnightlyKnave on Ok Cupid

Thank you

I wanted to thank everyone for their kind words and encouragement. In the morning I will once again tackle that computer screen at Walmart. Living in a small town there are not a lot of job opportunities. Because of my back I cannot do mill work. And ask yourself, do you want a waitress to wait on you that has to keep asking you to keep repeating your order because they could not hear it? I know my limitations due to my back and hearing. And yes I have a college degree. Guess what I am obsolete. And again, I have less hearing than I did 12 years ago, I would not be able to listen to a patients breathing and truely tell what I hear. Somebody said something about working on computers. LOL I know several people with computer degrees that are cashiering! I know it sounds like a bunch of excuses and it is. I do have a fear of going to interviews. I will do it but I won't like it.

Tuesday, March 22, 2005

new journal

I just started reading a new journal. It is written by a 43 year old mother that had a stroke 3 years ago and homeschools her children. She could use some encouragement to continue with her writing.

It is called random musings of my mind .

bad start

I went this morning to put in a job application at Walmart. They use a computer to fill out applications now. I was halfway thru it, actually more than halfway when it went black and lost power. Everything was lost. They do not know just how hard it is for me to fill this stupid thing out. None of the places that I worked at have a record of me ever have worked there. And most of the places are not around anymore. They want to know my managers name. I don't know those things. I don't know when I started working at any of my jobs. I don't know what I was paid. I don't have 2 people that I can put down that I have worked with. I only have 1. I have not worked in 12 years. Don't they know how hard it is for me to do this? Looking for a job scares me. It always has.Interviewing scares me. I am always afraid that I will not hear what they say to me. Now I have trouble seeing things good. I have had a broken back so I am limited on what I can do. I have limited hours I can work. I am scared of doing this whole thing.I am not good at this. I don't know if I am going to be able to go back and do this. I don't like feeling this way again.

Monday, March 21, 2005

Are you normal?

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Your Normalcy Quotient is: 53 out of 100.

What really counts is how your score compares to those of your normal or not so normal group of friends. Don’t forget to forward them this email so you can compare results.

You are a Wonderful Eccentric
You’ve earned the title of wonderful eccentric, and while you’re not a wild, gun slinging maverick, you certainly like to follow your own way.

Did you know that approximately twenty-four percent of people escape the mainstream of city life and live outside a metropolitan area? Also, children live in only one third of U.S. households. As of 2003, there were over one hundred and eleven million households in the U.S. Approximately, seventy-six million householders own their domicile, and about thirty-four million people rent.

Most people own televisions, but are you eccentric enough to get a television bigger than the Sony Power Tron TV? This enormous television was unveiled in Tsukuba, Japan in 1985, and it measured at eighty feet by one hundred and fifty feet. It was part of the International Exposition that showcased in Japan that year.

One eccentric who didn’t follow the road most traveled was Albert Einstein. When he was going to the Institute of Technology in Zurich, Einstein often missed classes while working in the library or the laboratory. He had to rely on his friend Marcel Grossman to take notes for him in the classes that he missed. Einstein of course went on to formulate the Theory of Relativity. And conventional wisdom would have told you to go to class every day!

Of course, you probably don’t think of yourself as eccentric. As Einstein might say, “It’s all relative.”


Have you had one of those days that was ho hum and you were glad? That is today. No drama and glad of it! I have a little one climbing up my leg, no problem there, I have jeans on. Brook is in bedroom listening to her one of her cds. Her homework is done. Beans are in the crockpot ready to eat. Got all my badges this week on POGO. The drama is at my daughters house and it can stay there!!! Now I do forsee some future drama. Horse for sale! Spoiled rotten, rides good, thinks she is a dog.$800 Well? What do you think? Will she sale with that ad?

Saturday, March 19, 2005


You scored as Goofy. Your alter ego is Goofy! You are fun and great to be around, and you are always willing to help others. You aren't worried about embarrassing yourself, so you are one who is more willing to try new things.



Donald Duck


The Beast






Peter Pan


Sleeping Beauty


Cruella De Ville


Snow White



Which Disney Character is your Alter Ego?
created with QuizFarm.comI got this from KAS

Spring Haiku

Look, can you see it?

Mother Earth getting ready

to bring forth new life


   Birds fly here and there

 Homes they make for little ones

Spring, the time for birth  


Tiny blades cut the ground

Uncurling their leaves skyward

Welcoming the Spring  


Listen, Do you hear it?

Birds singing, wind whispering

Sping is coming soon  


Ok maybe I got a little into it. I started on John's weekend assignment and just could not stop!  I love haikus and I love spring. Spring always gives me hope.

Moving on down to the southside...LOL.

Lordy have mercy, everyone go drink a tall glass of water! I do not want anyone else to go thru this!!!

Friday, March 18, 2005

I'm back

What I had not told anybody, including Pat,was that for the last week I have been having pain in my side. Well last night it got to be too much and I decided to go to the doctor this morning. I had no appointment and as early as 830 her office was packed. When I finally saw her she chewed me out for waiting to come in and sent me to the hospital for tests.

Well I got back from the hospital just in time to go to TaeKwonDo. I was so relieved, well almost. All my lab work came back good so no appendicitis or infection. Poor guy across from me came in with the stomach flu and he had appendicitis! So off to xray with me. Turns out that even though ( now hold your nose) I have been pooping regular, I have some poop stuck in me. Yes that's right I am consipated. The ER doc said that it would be a good idea to have me checked out for IBS. It seems that IBS is a side effect of gallbladder surgery for women. Sounds like fun. Now for the real fun. They treated me at the hospital and nothing came out! So now I am waiting for the outcome of their treatment. I am not going to follow thru with the chemicals that they want me to take. I got me some grape juice and prune juice( I will mix them as I hate prune juice!) and will start a walking program. Just going to get things moving along! LOL

Get back later

Doctor is sending me to hospital to be checked out for possible appendicitis or kidney stone. Be back later to let yall know.

Thursday, March 17, 2005


They claim that they mailed him a check last week from worker's comp. The reduced pay is because he is at work and getting comp pay. We will see.

His mother is not coming down here.

My daughter may or may not be moving back home.

Brook is still my very favorite grandchild.( my only actually!)

It has hit the fan

Forgive me in advance. This is a rant and a crying jag all at the same time.

It has hit the fan at Pat's work. He got his paycheck last night and found out that they cut his pay by 2/3. His take home pay for 1 week was less than the gas it took him to get there. They never notified him that he would be making less. I do not know how legal that is but I just cannot believe that it is! If it is I would rather live somewhere else. Why are they doing this?At this rate we will be homeless in about 2 months. At this time I do not know what is going to happen. First we are going to call attorney and see what they say. I will get a job but I know I will not make enough to pay our bills. Providing I can get a job. I have been out of the job market for a long time. No one will hire Pat being under restricted work orders from doctor. He will have to forfeit claim in order to get another job. I do know that if this is not a clerical mistake(which I doubt) He will not stay with this company. At this moment he is ready to commit murder. I know I am.

St Patrick's Day

Happy St. Patrick's Day. Do you have your green on? I do! I am not fond of getting pinched! I have my hat and am looking for my pot of gold. My teddy is all decked out.

Have a great day today!!


Wednesday, March 16, 2005


I was off line and my firewall stopped 5 attempts to get into my computer in the period of 2 minutes! Get a firewall if you do not have one. Someone could be doing that to you! I was playing a game. AOL was not loaded and my firewall started flashing. SCARY!!!!


Looks like I will have a visitor for at least a day. Pat will be bringing his mother down here tonight after he gets off work. It could be morning before they get here.

Yesterday was the day that her daughter and grandaughter decided to jump on another daughter in the very small living room where their Mother was at. I mean a knock down drag out fist fight. While they were at it one of them find it necessary to also attack a 75 year old partially blind woman with advance heart and lung disease. She was hit several times in the head with a phone in addition to being knocked down. The granddaughter went to jail and the daughter that is a real piece of work, took off and took her mother's house keys and the rest of her mother's social security check that was left from her stealing it while her mother was in the hospital last week. So now she has no money and all the bills are due, sitting in a house terrified that they will come back, and refusing to come down here because she cannot lock up house. She finally did agree to come here with Pat when he got off work tonight. Most of this we did not find out until today when we stopped by there and a daughter was hauling all of the granddaughter and other daughter's stuff out of the house at her mother's request. I finished taking the stuff out including a computer that is now sitting outside in the rain. I did cover it up with a plastic bag but I doubt that will help it. And frankly I do not care. Because of the size of her door, the locks have to be ordered.

Sorry flylady I have to do more that 15 minutes and 5 inutes in the spare room. I just shampooed half the carpet and have to move bed and do the other half. All of Brook's toys that are in there are being moved out. Sheets still need to be put on the bed and a slat has to be replaced. I have it, just need to remove matress and boxsprings to place it.

Lordy send me good vibes, prayers or whatever! This woman does not like me but I think that right now she considers me the lesser of 3 evils!  The daughter in Indiana is supposed to be coming down next week to take her up there. We will see what happens.

Papers were signed this morning. Pat is nervous about that and this other stuff on top of that. It is a wonder he has not had a stroke or heart attack himself. This is a real happy place to be right now!

Tuesday, March 15, 2005

I just looked out my door and it is snowing! What a reminder of the blizzard of '93 which hit the 15th of March that year!


"How far you go in life depends on your being tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving, and tolerant of the weak and strong. Because someday in your life you will have been all of these."
George Washington Carver

Monday, March 14, 2005

testing 123

Ok just how many of you can pass this 3rd grade test the first time around?

Click here for test

I got a 40 the first time

Update on Pat

We went to the doctor today to get the results of his MRI. I did not think we would ever get there. First of all it is almost 50 miles one way to get there. We p[lanned early, left at 8am to get to his 930 appointment. We had the intention to stop on the way and get something to eat. WRONGGGGGGGG. We ran right smack dab into a traffic jam on a 2 lane road. Apparently there was a wreck and we were stuck in traffic. We turned off on a side road because it was announced on the radio that the wreck was in town! Town was 4 miles from where we were! So off thru the country we went. Lucky for Pat I knew these back roads. We made it to Cleveland with 10 minutes to spare. No breakfast. Once in the doctors office we waited for him(the doctor). Pat was all worried. I felt that the doctor would send him to physical therphy.He came in and gave us the news. He does have a disc bulging out. He is sending Pat to physical therphy. Now the real nice worker's comp people are making him drive to Chattanooga to do it. So lets see he is to drive 30 miles 1 way to PT. O yes, they said since he worked in Chatt and was going to be there anyway that he could either have it before work or when he gets off work. Well he gets off at midnight so that wont do. Now, we do not know what time they will have him come in for it. This is getting stupidier by the second. So we go back to office and sign papers on Wednesday. Disc troubles never go away. Gotta make sure he does not get screwed. More important than ever that I get a job. Must make sure that we can afford to eat if things go bad. I know this was kind of rambling but that is how my thinking is right now. I think I will go play a game so I can get straightened out.


Sunday, March 13, 2005


I will be celebrating St. Patrick's Day a bit early. This is the only day I will be able to get everybody together. I have a corned beef brisket that I am going to cook. I am usisng a new recipe that I have never tried. It is a one pot meal and I really like those!

Well I have to get busy. I have rollers in my hair. I never thought I would do that to myself again. I know, I know. I am getting older! Yuck!!!

Saturday Six on Sunday

I don't do these every week but i really enjoy reading others answers. Well anyway here are my Patrick's Saturday Six on Sunday.

1. Have you ever called 911 for an emergency?
Yes,  I have called for medical and non medical reasons. No I do not use 911 for every call. I keep the non-emergency number handy too.
2. Do you spend more or save more?
 I spend more. How could I not? Groceries, gas and utilities have gone up steady over the last few years.
3. How many live plants do you have in your home now?  Do you give them enough attention?
 I have 1 live plant, at least I think it is alive.........
4. What was the last thing you did to exercise?  How often do you exercise?
 Minimal amount of excerise everyday. I hate it! Mostly I walk.
5. Where do you compare with regard to your parents:  do you feel like an adult, or still like the "kid?"  If you feel like an adult, when did you first feel that way?
I feel like an adult. I cannot remember the first time I felt like one. I could never compare myself to my parents.
6. Who is the last person you received a personal card or letter from that wasn't sent to mark a special occasion?
   Denise, by snail mail sent a lovely note, Joyce, by e-mail.

These are my answers. If you want to play along click Patrick's name above and it will take you to his entry.

Saturday, March 12, 2005

This was interesting


I got this quiz today from Sorting the Pieces by sistercdr. It was rather interesting seeing the results. It did pretty much nail me! So what does it say about you?

Your Brain is 60.00% Female, 40.00% Male Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female You are both sensitive and savvy Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve What Gender Is Your Brain?

Friday, March 11, 2005

Happy Birthday Daddy. You would have been 95 today. I have missed you everyday of the last 32 years.

Those alerts again

Once again we are stuck with alerts not working properly. I am taking steps to by pass these crazy alerts. I have made a ccount at Bloglines. It is a free service that you can get and it monitors all the journals and blogs you want it to. All you have to do is plug in the atom feed link ( the atom feed link can be found at the end of every AOL journal)and bingo! YOU JUST GO TO YOUR LINK AND YOU CAN SEE WHO HAS UPDATED AND READ THEM! So easy to do. Check it out and you will never miss another entry unless you want to. Click here to go to Bloglines I read a lot of journals and it will take me a while to get them all in there so please have patience with me!

Editted to add now all at once 10 alerts popped in mailbox. I looked at the first one and it was for this morning!

Today has not been the best of days. My dear hubby has finally caught the stomach bug. He has spent the day hugging the throne. Poor baby, I called in for him to miss work, not that he is doing anything anyway.

I went this morning and got my new contacts. $200 for them. I guess I am lucky they habve not gone up in price. And no I could not get them cheaper on-line. I cannot get them on-line. They have to be custom made because they are so strong. It feels good to be able to see again. I am very near sighted and have astigmtism too. LOL I have to wear reading glasses because they are so strong I lose my near vision. Weird isn't it? Near sighted and cannot see close up with them on.  I have to take contacts off in order to see my eyes up close in a mirror. Sad thing is, that is all I can see with them off. O well I can see.

Brook has TaeKwonDo tonight. She is training for her purple belt. She has said that she will be a black belt when she is 9. I think it may take a bit longer than that. LOL She is confident though!

Gotta go. Brook has to feed her Neopets and I have to empty dryer.


Thursday, March 10, 2005

Got some news this evening

My daughter called and talked to me tonight. She will be moving back home next week. Her boyfriend has a few problems involving an ex, well I can't say girlfriend because all it was was a weekend dilly dally. Well that resulted in the creation of a baby. Anyway there is a bit of drama going on and she is coming home. The drama is being caused by the mother of the baby. There are some bad choices being made that will probally backfire but that is not my concern. My daughter is my concern. She fell in love with this man and this hurts her. I will be busy this week getting her room ready and putting the guns and swords in storage. This is a requirement of her probation, no weapons can be in the house, not even under lock and key. I started shampooing the carpet in her room tonight. I will only do 30 minutes of that kind of thing at a time. Everything will work out. I just have to remember to have patience. She is as pigheaded as I am bullheaded!


Thank you

I wanted to thank each and everyone of you for your comments and kind e-mails. I did need that reminder that I am not responsible for another's actions. As all parents know it is hard at times to not blame yourself for your child's mistakes. At least I am not blind to what she does. I do not deny it. I do not cover up what she does. I was watching Dr phil yesterday and I was appalled at this mother that was denying her son'e confession that her molested her 4 year old daughter and that it was not just a one time thing. i could not watch the show to the end, so I do not know if Dr. Phil thought that the boy(man) should come back home after his treatment. Instead of being arrested he was placed in a treatment program. Yes, he is your son love him. That is your daughter, love her too and do not bring him back. Did anyone else see the show? Do they know what happened?



Tuesday, March 8, 2005

Last night I was upset because of what I felt was an intrusion in an activity that Brook and I enjoy. My daughter said that she would take us to TaeKwonDo tonight. Well that upset me because taeKwondo is our thing. I was angry and crying after she said that. i know she is Brook's mother and she wants to get involved in her life but I still felt, o I don't know. I felt a lot of things.

So tonight she came over and we ate dinner and left for TaeKwonDo. On Tuesday Brook has a long class time. It is 2 and a half hours. I guess my daughter did not realize that, even though she has been told that. LOL she got all huffy and said but her bedtime is at 8. I know that was a show because I bet that when Brook is over there she more than likely does not go to bed at 8.  LOL my daughter does not have patience. It was very hard for her to stay there the whole time. Actually she did not do it. She wandered in and out talking on phone , going to a store, ect. I always stay there the whole time and watch what is going on, talking with the other parents. Needless to say, I do not think that there will be very many more trips with us.

I am sad to say that I raised a selfish person. She is all about ME. No matter what it is , it seems that she has to be center. To me it seems that she places her needs above anyone else. I thought that I had taught her better than that. I do not see any of the values that I thought I taught her. the world has done a good job teaching her other things. I am not saying she is a bad person. She is like so many others I see in this world. I failed in teaching her the right way. I did not teach her how to be happy and how to love freely.I see no kindness in her. How could I not teach her the things she really needs? I just pray that someday she learns those things. I pray that I have taught Brook those things and she does not forget them no matter where she is.

Monday, March 7, 2005


Yesterday was a beautiful day! the sun was shining and the day was warming up right nicely. My daughter called and asked if her next door neighbors could bring their horses over and ride. Of course we said yes.

They got over here and unloaded the horses . One was a nice, big, pretty horse called Jimmy. The other was a wild looking thing called Coco. Well, Belle was thrilled! There were horses in her yard. Not only that, they were BOY horses! Well Jimmy ignored her but Coco went into stud mode. It turns out that he was not cut until he was well into his breeding years and still thought he was a stud. We brought out our horses and got them saddled up to ride with them. That was when things started falling apart. I got on Precious and all hell broke loose when Coco came near her. He acts like a stud. She still has very vivid memeories of what that stud did to her last year. Check it out here If you have never been on a horse when they start fighting then let me tell you it is not fun! Precious flipped around and started bouncing her back legs up kicking at Coco and he was kicking at her! I got her going forward away from him but she was still hopping around sort of stiff-legged. I got her facing the hitching post and she got upset again because there were 2 horses at it and she started her backing up. She is a champion backer. She will back up 20 feet or more if you let her. I got somebody to grab her so she would stop and I was off. My back was killing me. All that twisting and hopping jarred my back something awful. It is still a bit sore today. I keep finding little sore places on me.

So they went riding. And I tell you this, that was a big bunch of greenhorns. They need to ride rental horses that go in circles. I thought I was a novice, I am an expert next to them!

Next time IF there is a next time I am staying inside!

Saturday, March 5, 2005

About the last entry

I know there are a few people wondering about the last entry. Look around you and you will find groups of peopleThat control or are in the process of gaining control of things. Take Congress for example, a large group of people that control us. Yes they do control us. The only control we have is our vote. Take a look at other groups. Did you ever have the thought come across your mind,"what a stupid group of people?" Lately I have been thinking that about several groups. I have been wondering why?

Friday, March 4, 2005

Never underestimate the power of stupid people in large groups.

Wednesday, March 2, 2005

I am upset and angry. Pat saw the doctor today and he was given an okay to return to work on restricted duty. Why could he not stretch it out until Monday at least so that he could be paid for the last 2 weeks of missed work? His job called and left a message that if he did not clock in tomorrow he would be fired. He has an MRI tomorrow, during the time when he has to be at work. He has worked there for 18 years. He has gone in sick and worked in horrid conditions. He has done everything they have ever asked him to. He has worked double shifts and come in on his of days.

Let's see. He is not to pick up anything that weighs more than 20 pounds. His air gun weighs that much. He is not to bend or stoop, no prolonged standing or sitting. He is a diesel mechanic. How is he supposed to do anything? To keep from paying any worker's comp they will have him come in and do what?

We are seeing a lawyer in the morning.

I am upset and angry. I do know that he will get another job now, or rathere when the doctor allows him to do more. No one will hire him like this. Why does life have to kick you in the ass when it is finally getting better? Why can't things stay good for a little while for once ?

I have a real great week ahead of me. In morning drive 26 miles to town to see lawyer, then 26 miles back. They 26 miles to take him to work, then back home again. Then back to his work again and then to Cleveland which is about 25 -30 miles from his work. Then if I have to take him back to his work I will stay until he gets off. He is taking pain medicines and muscle relaxers and cannot drive. He has a CDL and even though they are prescribed drugs, which would get him out of ticket on normal license, on CDL it is not allowed at all. Think about it. It is bad enough when a car is being driven by someone on pain pills, but a big rig?????? Ok, I have raged for now. I feel a little better. Signing off going to Walmart for drug refills.

Tuesday, March 1, 2005


I got up this morning to a dusting of snow and ice here. I figured that school would not be canceled and I was right. I got Brook up and she got ready for school and I drove down to catch the bus. It was about 5 minutes late. No problems there. Now I am siting here wondering if school will be closed. It is snowing.LOL. There are mountains in our county and they get icy. So far this year school has not been closed early and canceled due to snow. Mainly because it has not snowed. I know there are some of you that are saying , a dusting? They close schools with a dusting? Well I live in the SOUTH. We do not have snow plows. Our county has some guys in the back of a truck shoveling out salt and sand. I think we have 1 spreader. Now I doubt that school will be closed. It is a very light snowfall and the sun keeps coming out.

O yes, funny thing this morning. I have silly cats. There was a pile, yes that's right a pile, of cats sleeping on the porch, their fur covered with snow! I tried to get a picture but as soon as I touched the knob they all jumped up and ran to the door. You could see steam coming off the porch where they were laying!

That's it for now. time to check my laundry!