Last night I was upset because of what I felt was an intrusion in an activity that Brook and I enjoy. My daughter said that she would take us to TaeKwonDo tonight. Well that upset me because taeKwondo is our thing. I was angry and crying after she said that. i know she is Brook's mother and she wants to get involved in her life but I still felt, o I don't know. I felt a lot of things.
So tonight she came over and we ate dinner and left for TaeKwonDo. On Tuesday Brook has a long class time. It is 2 and a half hours. I guess my daughter did not realize that, even though she has been told that. LOL she got all huffy and said but her bedtime is at 8. I know that was a show because I bet that when Brook is over there she more than likely does not go to bed at 8. LOL my daughter does not have patience. It was very hard for her to stay there the whole time. Actually she did not do it. She wandered in and out talking on phone , going to a store, ect. I always stay there the whole time and watch what is going on, talking with the other parents. Needless to say, I do not think that there will be very many more trips with us.
I am sad to say that I raised a selfish person. She is all about ME. No matter what it is , it seems that she has to be center. To me it seems that she places her needs above anyone else. I thought that I had taught her better than that. I do not see any of the values that I thought I taught her. the world has done a good job teaching her other things. I am not saying she is a bad person. She is like so many others I see in this world. I failed in teaching her the right way. I did not teach her how to be happy and how to love freely.I see no kindness in her. How could I not teach her the things she really needs? I just pray that someday she learns those things. I pray that I have taught Brook those things and she does not forget them no matter where she is.