Today I helped my friend move some things into her new apartment. I t is a sad day for both of us. She does not want to move into town and I hate to see her move away from me. She is the only friend I have left that I see face to face. My best friend lives elsewhere so I do not get to see her very often.
I do not make friends easily. I have a hard time understanding what people say sometimes. Actually I have a hard time most of the time. I am hearing impaired and do not have hearing aids to help me hear what is being said to me. People that don't know me think I am ignoring them when they speak to me or snubbing them if they do know me. I have had people actually ask me if I was retarded. It is hard to explain to people that I did not hear them speak to me or have them repeat what they said to me because I only heard a word or two. I smile and nod a lot in social situations or look like I am totally absorbed in something so I won't get approached. I read lips, I can hear as I am not totally deaf, but I miss a lot of what is being said and therefore I fill in the blanks and sometimes it is wrong. It has caused a lot of problems for me and so I stay out of situations where I will have to listen to a lot of different people. The internet has given me a chance to meet people that do not care if I can hear them or not. I can chat with someone and not have to say what did you say? I have met some wonderful people here and of course I have met some creeps too. I am thankful for all that I have met. You have helped me to find out things about myself that I probally never would have known.