Some stuff

Brook is taking the largest antibiotic capsule I have ever seen a human take! It is an inch and half long! So far I have seen no effect on the lump in her neck. I will be keeping an eye on it.

I went to the eye doctor yesterday. It was past time for me to get my eyes checked. The news was not so good. I am suffering from

Corneal neovascularisation is the ingrowth of abnormal blood vessel into the cornea from the limbus (junction of cornea and eye-white).The cornea normally has no blood vessels. Contact lens wear slightly reduce the oxygen deliver to the cornea, when lens wear is prolonged for days at a time or a lens that significantly limit the oxygen supply to the cornea, the cornea responds to this chronic oxygen deprivation by growing new abnormal blood vessels. 

Further progression involves ingrowth of larger vessels accompanied by increasing amount of connective tissue into the transparent cornea. This fibrovascular scar is called Pannus, if unchecked it can grow over the pupil region of the cornea. 

The occurrence of neovascularisation requires immediate lens change to allow sufficient oxygen supply to the cornea, by using of higher oxygen transmissibility lens material and stop extended wearing schedule.

Not pretty is it? I will still be wearing contact as I need them in order to be able to pass eye exam for license to drive. The new thing is , I will be wearing glasses too, bifocals at that! I will have to change my contact lens wearing time. I do not want to lose my eyesight any sooner than I may. Contacts are not a vanity for me. I have extreme nearsightedness and astigmatism. Anybody that has extreme bad eyesight can tell you that when wearing glasses you lose a lot of vision. Instead of turning your eyes to look at something you have to turn your whole head. There is no such thing as a sideways glance out of the corner of your eye. Peripheral vision is gone for me with glasses. Even with the ultra thin lens you may not be able to see my eyes with my glasses on, they will be small. I have to take care of my eyes. I use them to hear with. I lip read. I am lost without my eyes. I descend into a world that consists of lights and shapes and squeaky noises. All I can do is smile and nod because I have no idea what you just said.

I got Brook's school pictures today. I am hoping to scan one and post it. She is a beauty in it! I believe it is one of the best pictures she has ever had taken! Someone made a comment to me today that I should not post pictures of her. Maybe not. 

Pat's sister called yesterday and told him that he needs to go osee his mama nad that her something to eat. Turns out that she(the sister)has been in the hospital for a few days. I am totally mad about that. Why did she wait 3 days to call? I made her some potato soup yesterday and today I sent beans and ham with cornbread and a couple of sausage bisquits. Pat said she looks bad. She is finally realizing that J is the reason no one comes around. But that won't make any difference. Pat did not even get in the house the last time he went over there. J came out in the yard and told him that his mama was asleep. I feel sorry for Pat because I know how much he loves his mother but he does not want to go thru hell everytime he goes there. It will hurt him when she dies. He will feel guilty. I know, I have been there myself. I fell guilty everytime I think of the times when I should have gone to see my mama and I did not.

That's all for now. Good night yall.