Friday, April 6, 2007

Brook




Brook is my granddaughter. She has a special place in my heart not just because she is my granddaughter but for many other reasons also. First of all she almost did not come to be. 18 months before her birth her mother was in a car accident. She was struck and drugged by a driverless car about 100-150 feet and was under the car when it came to a stop. I saw it happen. It was my car. I watched screaming as my baby was sucked under the car, as it rolled down the hill. I can hear her screams to this day. I watch as the car came to a stop with a bounce, on my baby girl. When I reached her side she was begging me to move the car. I knew that when the car was removed that several things could happen. One was death when the pressure was relieved. I held her hand the entire time. I would not let them separate us. She was lucky. She had an angel watching over her. One hip was broken in 8 places and her pubic bones were broken in 4 places. She had a third degree burn on her leg where the tailpipe had been resting on her leg. When they finally took her to surgery they wired her hip together. It needed to be replaced but because she was only 18 they would not do it. She still had an angel with her. 3 months after her surgery, the surgeon was arrested for drugs. Turns out he was on coke! When my daughter told me she was pregnant, I was so happy and scared and jealous. Happy because I was going to be a grandmother, scared because I did not know if she would be able to carry the baby, jealous because I wanted another baby of my own so bad!


Due to some very bad choices that my daughter made in her life, when Brook was 2 years old I because her parent. I was the one to hold her when she cried so hard that she would get sick when we would go see her mama. I became Santa and the Easter bunny and the Tooth fairy. I was the one that taught her to read. I became classroom mom. I went on every field trip. I was there for every activity in school. I was every thing.


Now her mama is back. Brook is living there and for so long it felt like my heart was ripped out. No longer do I have a little body(that is not fur covered) climb in bed with me and snuggle. My life centered around her. It still hurts when she leaves here.


If Brook is sick, she stays with me. That is where she wants to be. I am worried about hertonight. She has discovered a hard lump in her neck that is painful. I will be calling the doctor Monday unless there is a dramic increase in size over the weekend.

13 comments:

  1. What a terribly scary thing to have happen. I'm glad your daughter made it through. I pray that Brook will be okay. Paula

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  2. Traumatic events.  Yet so much bright and good to be thankful for!   Praying Brook's knot in her neck is nothing of consequence.  -  Barbara

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  3. thegirlnexdoor77April 7, 2007 at 1:55 AM

    Thought I would pop in..I had the same thing happen with Trista and a hard lump in her neck area..they had me so scared...told me it was bad and might be parkensins...it turned out the doctor that was doing a sonograme suggested another xray...she has two extra ribs with joints...must not be to uncommon because I met a lady whose son has the same thing...I told them at the emergency room it felt like a bone..I know we did some heavy praying and in the end even though it didn't show the first time in an xray it did the second..she also has two extra lung lobes.  So will be praying for Brook that it is nothing serious...I still remember how very scared I was!  Hugs,TerryAnn

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  4. Celeste
    I'll be keeping Brook and you in my prayers as you investigate the cause of that lump on her neck.  Hopefully it will turn out to be something that is not serius.  
    Sam

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  5. I'll be thinking of you this weekend as you worry your way through 'til Monday.  Prayers for all.

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  6. Brook is very lucky to have you!

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  7. You and Brook have a MAGNIFICIENT bond that no one will ever be able to get between...I think that is awesome...Brook will always know who did what in her life for her....You two are really blessed to have each other.
    Peace
    -Ellie

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  8. Omg what a horrible thing to watch. I am so glad everything turned out ok .
    Brook is sooo lucky to have you .

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  9. I can tell how special Brook is to you by the entries you have posted about her Celeste. I can only imagine how hard it is not to have her living with you now. I think you will always be very special to her no mater what. Hopefully the lump in her neck will prove to be nothing serious.  Happy Easter to you all.



    Love Sandra xxxx

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  10. Hi Celeste,
    I know that accident with the car had to have scared you to death! And yes, something like that is never forgotten...I am so glad it turned out the way it did...You are right, she had an angel watching over her. I know you will be on that phone first thing getting Brook an appointment, so when you do please let me know how she is ..
    love ya,
    carlene

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  11. I can tell how much you love Brook, by what you write about her. How dedicated you are to all of her activities. It had to be hard to let her go back to her mom, but we all must do what is best for the child. You were there when she needed you the most and now also. When she is sick she wants to be with you, this says to me that you are her security and comfort. The acident with your daughter is an awful thing. I know you freaked out when it happened, I am not sure I could have been as brave as you were. Please see the Dr. on Monday about Brook. I hope you all have a blessed Easter. hugs

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  12. you are a good grandmother.  that little girl is lucky to have you in her life.  i cant imagine how hard it is for you, i know she knows your love for her.  i will pray that this lump is nothing
    hugs
    noelle

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  13. I can see why she is so very special to you!  I hope the lump turns out to be nothing serious.
    Lori

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