Monday, December 19, 2005
My Christmas mood keeps coming and going. I guess because everything is here. No one except us for Christmas. Times like this I really miss my mama. I would go over to her house and we would bake and cook and wrap and decorate. Now I have no one but us to cook and bake for. I need something and I don't know how I can fix this. I have no one that I can bake a cake for except us. No big family meal to cook. My family can no longer be bothered to get together now that Mama is gone. Sorry I guess I am a bit down in the dumps. Ok I am out of here. I need to do something else.
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I agree; I want to join my sister at her son's in Kansas. We'd be crashing the party, but they wouldn't care. Cliff doesn't want to drive all that way, though. So far I really haven't gotten into the Christmas mood. Darn, I miss it.
ReplyDeleteMy mom lives 300 miles away and I miss her all the time. Especially when I won't be spending the hoildays with her. :( We visited for Thanksgiving and I won't see her again till New Years Eve. Till then I guess.
ReplyDeleteDianne
I mis when my grandma my greatgranny was alive nad we had big family gatherings.
ReplyDeleteLook at it this way Celeste.........your setting the trend and the traditions for Brook. The baking, decorating and cooking is now your job to pass down to her, memories to create and thoughts that will stick with her just as your mama did for you! And hey, maybe if you're happy and giddy and don't let those bah humbugs get to you, they'll come around and join the excitement. We can hope can't we? Even if they don't Brook and you can create your own little world of holiday glee and cheer......lose yourself in the carols, looking at the tree, and setting up your little holiday city that you boast to love so dearly.
ReplyDeleteI'm glad you have good memories with your momma....I;m sorry your feeling empty...I would come over but we live a little far <smile>
ReplyDeletedonna In TEXAS
I can relate. As a young girl, I had a really large family but they are all gone. I have my children and grandchildren, but I wish they had what I had......lots of aunts, uncles and cousins and my parents. My grandchildren just have me and my daughter-in-law's mom. We have fun and it's wonderful, of course, but I wish for them what I once had. : )
ReplyDeleteSo sorry...JAE
ReplyDeleteI think we are all showing our "age" and "times".....family have come and gone..we must make our own memories...make Christmas the most festive and happy....even if only two gather together....it's hard....but we will be glad we did afterward....Merry Christmas with love and hugs...Ora of Kentucky
ReplyDeleteHave you tried doing all those great Christmas traditions with your own kids? Do with them what your Momma used to do with you, and enjoy it all from her perspective.
ReplyDeleteShadie
It would make me sad too if I didnt have my family gatherings at Christmas. I hope your sprites get better!
ReplyDeleteTerrie
Celeste, my mom has been gone almost 20 yrs, & I feel the same. I do disagree with one thing though ~ there are always other people to bake for. Bake & they will come.
ReplyDelete<doesn't bake, but would come if you did.
You know Celeste...I think it is a part of the Christmas spirit to be a little sad for lost loved ones...and maybe it is a way for us to learn how important our love for one another really is....no amount of presents or money could equal me being able to see my daddy( deceased) just one more time, and tell him how much I truly love him...and I know you feel the same way about oyur mama.
ReplyDeletelove ya,
carlene
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ReplyDeleteI wish I could make this easier for you. But it is just something that you are going to have to do minute by minute. But I can guarantee you that your mother would not want you to celebrate the day in any way less than what she taught you. She would want you to gather your babies around you and share with them everything she taught you.
A few suggestions...call a homeless shelter or someplace like that, tell them your situation and that you would like to assist by baking some cookies, or whatever to donate to them.
Or go to a local nursing home. Do you know how many people there are without family, or left there all alone during the holidays? They would love a visit from you and your children. Call first and speak to someone, the director of the home and tell them you would like to bring your children for a visit and why. I remember that one year we were able to "adopt" a grandparent and they came to our house for a few hours on Christmas day.
Teach your children the joys of baking and giving this time of year. Spend an afternoon baking with them. Then that night go to the house of a family that you know is in "need". Leave a box of the baked goods on the porch with a little note wishing them a Merry Christmas.
Sit down with the kids, get out the scrapbook and share memories and funny stories about your mom with the kids!
There are so many things you can do this time of year. Think of your mother and what she would want for you. I gurantee you that she is not going to want to see you depressed or crying.
Merry Christmas!
Well, if misery loves company I know how you feel! Pick someone to make a cake for..............invite anyone you know who might be in the same boat. Just ideas. - Barbara
ReplyDeleteCeleste,
ReplyDeleteYou arent the only one feeling down. Christmas Eve was always as big a celebration for us as Christmas Day is most other families. We would go to my Grannys house for a big dinner and a gift exchange. Granny passed in July. No Christmas gathering this year. Just doesnt seem like Christmas without it either.
Stephanie
I know how you feel. Bake the cake...take it to your local nursing home for someone else's mama.
ReplyDeleteMerry Christmas!
Candace
Like you I miss my mother. We werw a fractured family a bit before she passed so it makes it even more difficult to get us together without her as the 'common thread.' I feel for you.
ReplyDeleteWhy don't you find someone who is going to be alone this Christmas and bake them something. Just a litle bit of your time might be the greatest gift of all.
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