Today was an early day for me. Went to bed at 12:30 , woke up at 4 AM. I hate when I do that. I laid there hoping to fall back asleep but sleep had left the building.
Go to the Doctor's office this morning for biopsy results and first chemo treatment. Talked to a nice man that was in for treatment of liver cancer. Him and his wife were encouraging.
Pat was called for lab work and then he was weighed in at 155.8 and BP was 130/80. Then back to the doctor's office. I knew when they doctor walked in. I knew before then. The results were not good. The cancer had spread into the lymph nodes. It is now in his blood stream. Who knows where or when it will settle into another spot.
Talk about pain, that was pain. It killed me to see the look on my husband face. To hear him say so it is over now. No. It is not over. It is not over. He is still alive, he can still fight this. Sure chances have just plummeted down to at best 15% to make it to 2 years.
First chemo treatment today. Gemzar/Carboplatin plus anti-nausea drugs via IV. He tolerated it well today. So far no nausea. Hair loss will happen. That is the least scary side effect. His immune system is now compromised . Red blood cell production will most likely go down. At one time or another he may have to receive blood. He is B- .
I am tired. I am going to lay down with him.