364 days until next Christmas.
Funny, it never mattered to me how far away the next Christmas was until much closer to the day. This time it is different. This time I don't know if I will have a husband to celebrate it with.
I know I have to think positive. I do. I refuse to allow anything negative in front of Pat or in his hearing. There are times when I do not feel positive. I am a realist. I know if he does not have the surgery, he will die. I don't know when but it will happen.
Tuesday we find out what the results are. Please do not let it be cancer.