Monday, August 4, 2008

I lost

I lost. I lost my family. Candiac stated she is no longer my daughter and Brook will not be allowed here anymore. I do not ever see any way to repair that relationship. She said if I choose to stay with Pat then I no longer have a daughter. She said that I choose Pat when I stepped between them when they were fighting and told her to leave. We had some harsh words today when I said I was unable to pick her up because Pat did not want me being a taxi service. So tempers flared and she threatened to put Pat in jail,disowned me and said Brook will never be allowed here again. So now if Pat and I do not make it then I have nothing.
I lost my daughter years ago. She alwaysthrows up the past to me and blames me. Now I have lost the light of my life and I do not know how to live with it.
Pat said Brook will find a way to see me. I don't see it happening. She is scared of her mother and will not defy her.

18 comments:

  1. Oh Celeste I am so sorry to see your heart breaking. You have done so much for them as far as helping Brook and probably things I don't know about. I'll pray your daughter gets over this and changes her mind. So sorry you are having to go through something like this. paula

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  2. OMG I don't know what to say?? I know you must be unbelievably hurt right now. I will be keeping you in my prayers.
    Hugs Pam

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  3. Give her time to get over it, They say time heals and I believe it does.
    If you give into her she will just take advantage of you, Be strong you will get through it.
    Ill pray for it to happen quickly.

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  4. Time is a great healer so please do not give up yet.  I know how much you are hurting but try to be strong and hang on in there.  Situations do change, miracles do happen.  It needs time and no more angry words.

    http://journals.aol.co.uk/jeanno43/JeannettesJottings/

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  5. Hi Celeste...words said in haste and anger sometimes have a way of going beside the road when thought about later...Brook is old enough to know her mind and in my heart I feel she will find a way...she knows you are her shelter in times of storm...keep positive...and not knowing all the situation...will keep you all in my prayers....God Bless...hugs...Ora

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  6. I know things look so balck right now that you can not see throught the mess...but Celeste things will look up...it may take some time but they will. Brook loves you like a mama...she will worry the dickens out of Candiac until she gets to see you and Candiac was  hurt and angry so she said things she truly didn't mean. As far as being a taxi, ain't that was mama's usually are anyway???? I know I am and my friends here are too...within reason....but I also know that my daughter would be there for me too if I needed her...so it goes both ways.
    Take care of yourself....I will keep you in my prayers.
    love ya,
    carlene








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  7. Brook knows you and loves you.  Nothing will change that!  Give it time dear.  She may very well wear her mom down.  I'll be praying for God to work on changing her mind, on healing these relationships.  ((((Celeste))))  =   Barbara

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  8. I'm lovin' you, Babe.

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  9. I am so sorry that you are going through this.  Please know you are in my prayers every day.

    (((( Hugs ))))
      Jctopaz55

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  10. ((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))
    Brook willl find a way to be around you.....you all have a strong bond....Prayers are being said for you all....stay strong!!!
    -Ellie

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  11. You are in my prayers, Celeste.  

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  12. So sorry to hear this... but I do have to echo what others have said. Brook isn't going to just forget about you. Some how you guys will see each other. For your daughter... I know about messed up family stuff, and sometimes time does heal. You are in my thoughts. {{{HUGS}}}

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  13. It isn't over till it's over.  Let's see how things look in six months.  

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  14. Don't give up yet.  Things said and done in the heat of the moment can be forgotten.  Brook needs you, and I know you need her.  I hope with time you'll get Brook back.
    Lori

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  15. Your daughter is being very selfish. I am guessing Brook will be able to point that out to her. Hopefully things will improve after the dust settles.

    xoxo

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  16. I'm sorry.  But don't give up.  Candiac is trying to manipulate you. Don't let her.
    And don't give up.  It's not over yet.  

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  17. I am so sorry that I have not read this until now. I am so very sorry that you are going through this. I know it doesnt help much but I can say that I relate to you alot. I know how bad it hurts when family turna on you like that. Maybe after things die down, things will turn out ok. My mother has turned my daughter against me. My mother has my daughter thinking that I am a loser. The last time I visited them, I felt like they were looking down on me. I am not wanted at my mother's house. It really hurts when things go bad and you dont have family that you can lean on. Not for money like my mother always thinks that I am after but for moral support or just someone to say , I love you. .....love ya, Christine

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  18. Hang in there.  As we all know, people say things out of anger, that they don't mean.  Give it time, and I'm sure things will change.  I will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.  I'm so sorry you're hurting.
    Big Hugs!
    Pat

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