I have lost myself. I have no idea where I went. Sometimes I just lose myself. My little anti social shell creeps back over my life and I hide again. I have to force myself to get going again.
Candy brought a boy over this morning and put him to work cleaning out Crystal's stall. Yes I know it is a school day. This kid has decided to get suspended from school for 10 days. Not a good situation. In all I don't think he is a bad kid, just lost. He is an angry kid. He hates his mama because he does not have a father (his dead is a real deadbeat and a bad person that denies he has a kid) Jessie has not been told who he is. He also hates her because she is gay. I have heard the young man talking about her and that is truly the only reason he ever says as to why. Somehow he has been taught that women cannot be in a position of authority. That a woman cannot be president because they ARE a woman. I don't understand him. His mother has always provided for him without assistance. She works hard to give him what he wants. This same little boy used to be so sweet with her. Hugging and kissing and I love youing.
Anyway, Candy went and picked him up last night because she knew she would not be working today. She informed him that this morning he would be cleaning out stalls, rain or shine. This is a city boy not a farm boy. She let him know that suspension from school did not mean sitting around playing games and watching TV. Ok I need to do some cleaning. I have a lot to catch up on. I must clean. (I have to keep telling myself that)