I cried today

I had to leave the room right after taking Pat's blood pressure today. It hurt so much to see his arms. Just a few months ago they were defined and muscular. Today I could almost put my hand around them. I feel so helpless watching him.

Girl breaking blocks

My beautiful granddaughter.

Different life now

My life right now is so very different than what I imagined it would be. I pictured me with 4 kids ,a husband, grandkids. A life filled with love, health and happiness and sharing it with family.  When that bubble burst, it exploded into a million pieces.Other than myself, not one person knows even half of what my life has been like, not my best friend, not Pat, not my family.
One day I had dreams again, only to come to the realization that dreams are dreams and will not be reality.