i forgot

I forgot to tell yall what happened yesterday morning. I woke up to a bird flying around in the house! Not one of my birds, a little wren was whizzing thru the air flitting around everywhere. My daughter had opened up her window a crack and the wind had taken the screen off(had bad winds night before) and she said that the bird just came zipping in the window! It surprised her and she opened her window up all the way so the bird could leave. Instead it flew under the door and started flying around the house! Now, I either have lazy cats or well trained ones, not sure which. There were 3 cats that had managed to sneak in and stay in the house overnight. NOT ONE OF THEM ATTEMPTED TO CATCH BIRD!!!!! I opened up the front door and out it flew! At least my day did start out with a laugh!

about last night

I am okay. Pat and I are having problems. Shortly after posting my last entry he came home. He had left earlier(11 hours earlier) after a few words to me that were uncalled for. He did not answer his phone and he was not using it to call anyone either. (I know how to check on that....)

Anyway I decided to sleep on the couch last night(fell asleep watching TV news) Around 2 am when he decided to go to bed he woke me up with a kiss on the forehead to take me to bed. He confuses me so much. I want to hate him but I can't, I love him. We have been together for 13 years now. I hate fighting with him. Even if I do not respond it does not matter, my silence is used against me. He is NOT physical.

not happy

Not happy. I am angry,scared and alone.