Getting there ,I think

So I started on a walking program. I have a treadmill in my living room and I am using it.  I am walking 5 minutes at 2 miles an hour 4 minutes at 3 miles an hour and then 5 more minutes at 2 miles an hour. Easy program for some people, but for me, right now, it hurts. I have been having a lot more pain than usual in my back. I think, maybe because of the weather and the extra weight with it is ouch. Some mornings it takes me about 2 hours to be able to get shoes on because I am unable to reach the floor. Putting on pants would make a good comedy show. I am not letting the pain stop me but I am slower, much slower than I want to be. I want to do so much. I am so tired of pain. Sometimes I question my decision to to not take pain killers. If I had chosen that route I would have qualified for disability by now. I guess I am just tired tonight. I think I will go to bed.

I am not feeling nice today

It is not nice to wish a tornado would come and wipe out somebody's house is it?

Not what I wanted to hear but it will be ok

Yesterday was a very long day. Pat and I drove to Murfeesboro for his VA appointment with his lung doctor. We left very early so we could check in with the ER in hopes of seeing the eye doctor ahead of his May appointment. They did get him in and did a through exam. It hurt me so much to listen to him in pain for an eye exam! That bright ,intense light that they use to look into your eye after dilation is painful. It also hurt to hear him call out letters and numbers that were not remotely close to the actual letter or number. He got the big E right on his left eye... Diagnosis-cataracts in both eyes. Now that is not so bad, that can be fixed. His lungs may affect the outcome of the surgery. If he moves at all during the surgery, which could take up to an hour, he could lose his sight completely. This time last year, he could see pretty good. Until surgery is done it is unknown if they will be able to implant a lens in his eye. Some people cannot have one. That is not good news.  His lung doctor gave the go ahead for the surgery. He put him on antibiotics and steroids for his bronchitis. He also prescribed a maintenance dose to take for a month to help keep him well for surgery. Now we need approval from his regular PCP.