whine post again

Seems like all I do is whine and cry and bitch.
I thought getting older meant somethings would be easier. That apparently was stupid thinking on my part. When do I get to take a step forward? I am so fricking tired of always going backwards. It seems no matter what I do it gets screwed up.
Going to make a list. Got to find a way to balance things. Find some more corners to cut. I guess I will not pay some bills. Credit is bad anyway.

JUst talking

Life has gone a little haywire here. Having serious back issues dammit.  For those that don't know, I broke my back in 4 places a few years back. This winter has been the worse time for it. I will have to suck it up and pretend next week that the pain is fine. Hubby will be having surgery next week and I will be doing his chores of feeding the animals for the next couple of months. Sigh.... I am already tired.

I have got to find some exercises that I can do that strengthens my back. I have stretching exercises but it needs to be stronger. Abs too. Ab muscles are not strong due to several surgeries and years of a very large tumor stretching them. I'm old and they are not snapping back like a young belly will and my back does not allow for certain exercises. Crap. Just take me behind the barn and shoot me.

Wondering when the Christmas mood will hit me. I may have to just force the issue and start decorating. 

OK I guess enough whining.

I really need some sunshine. Anybody want to send me to Hawaii?